linjane
18-11-05, 18:35
Hello everyone
Just a quick hi and to let you know I'm ok.
It was four weeks yesterday that we lost Reece but it some ways it seems like yesterday and in other ways, seems a lifetime ago. I had an appointment at the hospital on Tuesday, to get my results and the results from the post mortem. The baby had nothing at all wrong with him, so that makes it harder to understand why it happened and luckily there was nothing wrong with me. Apparently,. the constultant said there could have been all sorts of things wrong and they tested for loads of things and at least I could take that as a positive for everything that I have been through. He sees no reason why we shouldn't try again and he said he would monitor me throughout the early months, as they should have done this time. I am thinking of taking it further with the hospital because even my consultant said it wasn't good. (I am seeing a different consultant to the one I saw whilst still pregnant).
We have got the babies 'goodbye' next Friday and the Vicar came round this afternoon to talk about the ceremony. In some ways I'm dreading it, but know we have to do it. Some of our friends are coming this time but I'm scared I will be scared to show my emotions in front of them, which is really silly, because I am really close to all of them and they will be there to support us. I am having a Mariah Carey and Boyz to Men played in the church, called One Sweet Day. It is a lovely song and if you haven't heard it, download it and listen to it on the internet.
In genereal, I am doing ok. I am still getting the missed beats and at times feel really down, but that is only to be expected. It seems like not much is going right for us again. My business has slowed down to me barely taking anything each week and I am really beginning to worry, but from what I've heard most retail shops are struggling. As this is my only income it is worrying, I can't even pay my suppliers at the moment.
Anyway, enough doom and gloom. Hope you are all ok.
Take care,
speak to you soon,
Love Linda.xxx
Just a quick hi and to let you know I'm ok.
It was four weeks yesterday that we lost Reece but it some ways it seems like yesterday and in other ways, seems a lifetime ago. I had an appointment at the hospital on Tuesday, to get my results and the results from the post mortem. The baby had nothing at all wrong with him, so that makes it harder to understand why it happened and luckily there was nothing wrong with me. Apparently,. the constultant said there could have been all sorts of things wrong and they tested for loads of things and at least I could take that as a positive for everything that I have been through. He sees no reason why we shouldn't try again and he said he would monitor me throughout the early months, as they should have done this time. I am thinking of taking it further with the hospital because even my consultant said it wasn't good. (I am seeing a different consultant to the one I saw whilst still pregnant).
We have got the babies 'goodbye' next Friday and the Vicar came round this afternoon to talk about the ceremony. In some ways I'm dreading it, but know we have to do it. Some of our friends are coming this time but I'm scared I will be scared to show my emotions in front of them, which is really silly, because I am really close to all of them and they will be there to support us. I am having a Mariah Carey and Boyz to Men played in the church, called One Sweet Day. It is a lovely song and if you haven't heard it, download it and listen to it on the internet.
In genereal, I am doing ok. I am still getting the missed beats and at times feel really down, but that is only to be expected. It seems like not much is going right for us again. My business has slowed down to me barely taking anything each week and I am really beginning to worry, but from what I've heard most retail shops are struggling. As this is my only income it is worrying, I can't even pay my suppliers at the moment.
Anyway, enough doom and gloom. Hope you are all ok.
Take care,
speak to you soon,
Love Linda.xxx