ella
16-12-09, 22:40
since the age of 13 up until the age of 20 i suffered with depression, anxiety, panic attacks and obsessive compulsive disorder and my life was a complete mess, my mum had taken me to see the doctor a few times (i was too ashamed to even talk about it at the time so my mum had to do it for me... also if i did it was likely id just burst out crying anyway) the doctors seemed really reluctant to give me any medication (not sure if this was because of my age?) and gave loads of suggestions such as seing a counsellor, must of seen about 10 different ones in desperation but i just remained the same.... they suggested doing more exercise so i did this, still nothing... got referred to a pshychologist but was only allowed 4 sessions so no change there either..... when i turned 19 they allowed me to start taking a drug called citalopram, took this for about 8 months but it didnt seem to have any effect whatsoever so i went back to the doctors and explained and thats when i was given seroxat, at the time thinking nothing of it as so many things hadnt worked before so i thought this would be the same and there was no point etc
however i was so wrong!! i feel as if i am 'myself' now which sounds silly but when i was going through all that stuff it felt like i was trapped by all this depression/anxiety etc and the real me was hidden behind it all... i am so much happier/confident and i have a full-time job, which i dont think i would ever of been able to handle if it wasnt for seroxat.... i dont get depressed anymore or have any anxiety attacks, i still get anxious but i can handle it now wheras before i couldnt.... i still am a bit of a perfectionist but thats part of my personality, but the really quite severe obsessive compulsive disorder has just disappeared, i actually look back and cant beleive some of the OCD ish things i used to do that seemed so normal back then, but now i can see that they werent
anyway i just thought i would share this because this drug has been a miracle for me and has ended many years of me wanting to basically die!! and i know it has some bad press but i think if its possible seroxat could be suitable for someone, then it should be tried and monitored, then all being well the same can happen for them as it did for me :yesyes:
however i was so wrong!! i feel as if i am 'myself' now which sounds silly but when i was going through all that stuff it felt like i was trapped by all this depression/anxiety etc and the real me was hidden behind it all... i am so much happier/confident and i have a full-time job, which i dont think i would ever of been able to handle if it wasnt for seroxat.... i dont get depressed anymore or have any anxiety attacks, i still get anxious but i can handle it now wheras before i couldnt.... i still am a bit of a perfectionist but thats part of my personality, but the really quite severe obsessive compulsive disorder has just disappeared, i actually look back and cant beleive some of the OCD ish things i used to do that seemed so normal back then, but now i can see that they werent
anyway i just thought i would share this because this drug has been a miracle for me and has ended many years of me wanting to basically die!! and i know it has some bad press but i think if its possible seroxat could be suitable for someone, then it should be tried and monitored, then all being well the same can happen for them as it did for me :yesyes: