sarahg03
17-12-09, 17:10
I had my first panic attack in June of this year, I have three small children so stress is involved there.
It got so bad that it got to the point where the day after I had my first attack I went into the town centre with my husband and children and felt like i was going to collapse right there on the floor of Game in derby's new westfield centre, So hence I stopped going to the shopping centre and to supermarkets. I got my shopping done online so I didnt have to got to these places.
Anyway its that time of year and I needed to get into town to get xmas prezzies that I couldnt get online and a friend asked me about 3 weeks ago if I would like to go into town with her in the evening for dinner and to get some shopping done I agreed cause I knew that I had to do this otherwise I would end up a recluse for the rest of my life and I am only 26 shopping should be my life :D.
So I went took a Kalms before I left we went from 6pm until 9pm had tea stood in queue's, i felt a little anx and kept thinking WHAT IF i pass out, die in the middle of the shop how embarrasing etc as you do.
But it turned out that I was fine, anyway the next day I needed to go to mothercare and I was standing in the queue and all of a sudden bang anxiety attack, dizzy, sick, sweating you name it i had it, felt like i was going to pass out but I never did, I stayed in that shop and stuck it out.
Same happened again went to B&Q Bang again anxiety attack ended up bent over the customer service counter wouldnt let my husband leave my side incase I collapsed on the floor of B&Q, I didnt needless to say, but I still felt horrible.
I havent had a full blown panic attack for about 4 - 5 months now but I still have anxiety and worry about stuff get obsessive thoughts about death, suicide, not that i want to die thats why its stupid, really stupid, If anything I am scared of death, one of my friends at 26 died the other day of a heart attack and now I think that I am going to be next so at the moment that is in my every though.
When I go to bed at night and hear the planes go over the house I think that one is going to drop out of the sky onto the house, I know stupid irrational and i wouldnt be surprised if you did laugh, even I think its stupid and I am writing it.
But I think that in a way I have made progress cause I have gone to the shops felt anx stayed there fought it and won.
Just wanted to share with you all about this cause someone out there may be exactly the same as me looking through here and need some reassurance they no you are not crazy you are anxious and it can be beaten yeah its going to take time, but you can do it.
Sorry for the rant but if this helps one person to know that they are not alone in the world thats a good job done.
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL AND A GREAT 2010 XXXX:bighug1:
It got so bad that it got to the point where the day after I had my first attack I went into the town centre with my husband and children and felt like i was going to collapse right there on the floor of Game in derby's new westfield centre, So hence I stopped going to the shopping centre and to supermarkets. I got my shopping done online so I didnt have to got to these places.
Anyway its that time of year and I needed to get into town to get xmas prezzies that I couldnt get online and a friend asked me about 3 weeks ago if I would like to go into town with her in the evening for dinner and to get some shopping done I agreed cause I knew that I had to do this otherwise I would end up a recluse for the rest of my life and I am only 26 shopping should be my life :D.
So I went took a Kalms before I left we went from 6pm until 9pm had tea stood in queue's, i felt a little anx and kept thinking WHAT IF i pass out, die in the middle of the shop how embarrasing etc as you do.
But it turned out that I was fine, anyway the next day I needed to go to mothercare and I was standing in the queue and all of a sudden bang anxiety attack, dizzy, sick, sweating you name it i had it, felt like i was going to pass out but I never did, I stayed in that shop and stuck it out.
Same happened again went to B&Q Bang again anxiety attack ended up bent over the customer service counter wouldnt let my husband leave my side incase I collapsed on the floor of B&Q, I didnt needless to say, but I still felt horrible.
I havent had a full blown panic attack for about 4 - 5 months now but I still have anxiety and worry about stuff get obsessive thoughts about death, suicide, not that i want to die thats why its stupid, really stupid, If anything I am scared of death, one of my friends at 26 died the other day of a heart attack and now I think that I am going to be next so at the moment that is in my every though.
When I go to bed at night and hear the planes go over the house I think that one is going to drop out of the sky onto the house, I know stupid irrational and i wouldnt be surprised if you did laugh, even I think its stupid and I am writing it.
But I think that in a way I have made progress cause I have gone to the shops felt anx stayed there fought it and won.
Just wanted to share with you all about this cause someone out there may be exactly the same as me looking through here and need some reassurance they no you are not crazy you are anxious and it can be beaten yeah its going to take time, but you can do it.
Sorry for the rant but if this helps one person to know that they are not alone in the world thats a good job done.
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL AND A GREAT 2010 XXXX:bighug1: