T89
20-12-09, 01:15
I haven't been on here in a while because I've been dealing with things quite well lately but now I have a problem which is really getting me down-my friends, or rather one friend in particular!
Even though I feel like I have made some progress I still don't get out very much at the moment. I find it difficult enough to get myself out of bed and into uni so anything which I don't really have to do I don't. I know this isn't very helpful and I should try to get out and I do sometimes but more often than not I admit that I cancel. Now my friend has been saying some really hurtful things about how she doesn't understand what someone my age has to worry about,that I'm not a good friend because I won't see them anymore and that she's not the only who thinks this-meaning people have been talking about me. She didn't say this in a constructive manner like "oh you should get out more because we miss you" she said it once an argument over something else had started and it brought me to tears.
I know that depression and anxiety are difficult to understand if you've never experienced them but I just wish she'd be more supportive. Like I said, I also realise I need to get out more but I still find it hard.Before all of this I promised myself I'd make a special effort at Christmas and go to the doctor to talk about coming off citalopram but now I'm wondering if I'm ready.
I just need a place to let off a little steam as my friends who do understand are out or asleep.
Thanks guys.
Even though I feel like I have made some progress I still don't get out very much at the moment. I find it difficult enough to get myself out of bed and into uni so anything which I don't really have to do I don't. I know this isn't very helpful and I should try to get out and I do sometimes but more often than not I admit that I cancel. Now my friend has been saying some really hurtful things about how she doesn't understand what someone my age has to worry about,that I'm not a good friend because I won't see them anymore and that she's not the only who thinks this-meaning people have been talking about me. She didn't say this in a constructive manner like "oh you should get out more because we miss you" she said it once an argument over something else had started and it brought me to tears.
I know that depression and anxiety are difficult to understand if you've never experienced them but I just wish she'd be more supportive. Like I said, I also realise I need to get out more but I still find it hard.Before all of this I promised myself I'd make a special effort at Christmas and go to the doctor to talk about coming off citalopram but now I'm wondering if I'm ready.
I just need a place to let off a little steam as my friends who do understand are out or asleep.
Thanks guys.