matthewduffy2010
20-12-09, 21:34
In may 2008, my dad sadly passed away.
I did grieve for him, i actually cried a few days before the funeral, and i was on the edge of doing just this at the funeral.
Since then, i've been fine, honestly, really happy, i built up my confidence and have actually been getting great marks on my college work.
Today however, i had a moment when i thought about him. When i say that i don't mean that i saw him or heard him in my head, i just thought about him, if you can understand that. I felt a bit upset inside about it, but it did dissapear.
Later on, i decided to do my Paul McKenna stress CD, and during this trance, i just went mad mentally. I started panicking really badly and all these horrible thoughts were going around my head.
However, the funny thing is if i concentrate on something else, like a TV programme or listen to a piece of music, all the horrible feelings go away. It's really odd, to me anyway.
I thought i should write how i feel on here, so that i am not bottling it up and keeping it to myself.
What i wish to mention is that i have thought about him many times before, even spoke about him, and i haven't felt like this. I think it's mostly my panic in control.
Thank you
I did grieve for him, i actually cried a few days before the funeral, and i was on the edge of doing just this at the funeral.
Since then, i've been fine, honestly, really happy, i built up my confidence and have actually been getting great marks on my college work.
Today however, i had a moment when i thought about him. When i say that i don't mean that i saw him or heard him in my head, i just thought about him, if you can understand that. I felt a bit upset inside about it, but it did dissapear.
Later on, i decided to do my Paul McKenna stress CD, and during this trance, i just went mad mentally. I started panicking really badly and all these horrible thoughts were going around my head.
However, the funny thing is if i concentrate on something else, like a TV programme or listen to a piece of music, all the horrible feelings go away. It's really odd, to me anyway.
I thought i should write how i feel on here, so that i am not bottling it up and keeping it to myself.
What i wish to mention is that i have thought about him many times before, even spoke about him, and i haven't felt like this. I think it's mostly my panic in control.
Thank you