wits end!

[randomworry]

i really dont know if anyone can relate to this but i will say it anyway.

i was doing a uni degree and ended up touching my face with my glove contaminated with I-125 (radioiodine). I tried to hold it together and not fret through the practical. at the end i checked my face with the geiger counter and the demonstrator said that background radiation is about 5.

the reading on my face was about 7 i think- not sure but it went a bit above 5. I did not tell her and i left the lab i started getting really scared.

went home started coughing up some blood i was so freaked. long and short of story i ended up in a hospital mental ward because i became suicidal i thought i was radioactively poisoned- thought i may have ingested it!

i fell into a deep depression which i am still in.

did eventually get checked by professor after like week and half but am still really scared as to whether i have done damage to myself.

how do i calm myself down......any scientists here!?

please help......this is not a joke im really serious.

thanx for advice guys even if its just tips on getting out of a deep depression. psychiatrist put me on escitalopram.

thank u

[Andyroo]

well are you sure you coughed it up? my brother in law was coughing up blood and even threw up some blood... it wasnt much blood it turns out it was from his nose... we were worried but he is ok... was it bright red blood? was there alott?...:D