manuruth
23-12-09, 16:23
Hi All,
I really don't know what to do. I am dreading xmas day, the only thing that I am looking forward to is my two children opening their presents(they are 18 and 14). I have so much wanted to make it special for them, I have arranged for the xmas shopping to be delivered this afternoon by
Tesco, the meat was ordered from the butchers weeks ago. All the presents are wrapped with the help from my sons girlfriend which I am very grateful. I have ordered food, presents etc online over the past few months so basically nothing has to be done now except the christmas dinner.
I nastily broke my leg and had two operations on it, back in June but I am still on crutches and mainly resting. Between that and my mental health and other physical problems, I am really not feeling up to christmas. I can not get moviated, and I am ashamed to say that I have not had a
shower/.bath in over a week, I just have not got it in me. I've been feeling very low/anxious mixed states more than normal for a couple of months now. My psych has upped my doses and also added in additional medication over this time. But I am still not coping, and resorted to one of my coping skills of self harm within the last week.
My children last year were living with their dad while I recuperated as the previous xmas i was in the mental health unit and unable to come out at all over the festive period. Last year my children had xmas dinner with me and this year have both at the beginning of the year moved back in with me. So because they have not had the best last two christmas' with me I really wanted it to special this year for them.
The problem has now arisen that I invited my partners friend and his six year old son for dinner with us xmas day. But now I really can't face seeing people and I have suggested to my partner that I just plate them up dinners but he said no I invited them and I can't go back on it now. So the only thing I can think of if I have evrything cooked and then go upstairs out of the way until they've gone. I suggested this earlier and my 14 year old daughter is now saying I am selfish. I really haven't got it in me to cook the dinner but I am the only one that can do it, I have always done everything for them all. I realloy feel in a dilema, if my partners friend and son do not come at least I only have my kids and partner to face while cooking and eating. But it does not seem an option that they do not come. I just feel so trapped, weak with no motivation.
Please does anyone have some words of wisdom to offer.
Ruth x:unsure:
I really don't know what to do. I am dreading xmas day, the only thing that I am looking forward to is my two children opening their presents(they are 18 and 14). I have so much wanted to make it special for them, I have arranged for the xmas shopping to be delivered this afternoon by
Tesco, the meat was ordered from the butchers weeks ago. All the presents are wrapped with the help from my sons girlfriend which I am very grateful. I have ordered food, presents etc online over the past few months so basically nothing has to be done now except the christmas dinner.
I nastily broke my leg and had two operations on it, back in June but I am still on crutches and mainly resting. Between that and my mental health and other physical problems, I am really not feeling up to christmas. I can not get moviated, and I am ashamed to say that I have not had a
shower/.bath in over a week, I just have not got it in me. I've been feeling very low/anxious mixed states more than normal for a couple of months now. My psych has upped my doses and also added in additional medication over this time. But I am still not coping, and resorted to one of my coping skills of self harm within the last week.
My children last year were living with their dad while I recuperated as the previous xmas i was in the mental health unit and unable to come out at all over the festive period. Last year my children had xmas dinner with me and this year have both at the beginning of the year moved back in with me. So because they have not had the best last two christmas' with me I really wanted it to special this year for them.
The problem has now arisen that I invited my partners friend and his six year old son for dinner with us xmas day. But now I really can't face seeing people and I have suggested to my partner that I just plate them up dinners but he said no I invited them and I can't go back on it now. So the only thing I can think of if I have evrything cooked and then go upstairs out of the way until they've gone. I suggested this earlier and my 14 year old daughter is now saying I am selfish. I really haven't got it in me to cook the dinner but I am the only one that can do it, I have always done everything for them all. I realloy feel in a dilema, if my partners friend and son do not come at least I only have my kids and partner to face while cooking and eating. But it does not seem an option that they do not come. I just feel so trapped, weak with no motivation.
Please does anyone have some words of wisdom to offer.
Ruth x:unsure: