paradox
27-12-09, 13:06
I had major anxiety before Christmas. Then my son came home and things were easier. Now he's just left. And I'm back to being completely on my own again.
No friends. No family. No one.
I'm isolated because of body dysmorphic disorder and general/social anxiety. I'm agrophobic because of these conditions.
I feel stranded in my prison again.
I felt like my son couldn't wait to get away. Back to his busy life. Away from his crazy mother and her 'problems'.
I know this is dreadful, but it helps to know that there are other people who have similar issues. Makes me feel less of a freak. That others may understand my pain.
I'm so glad this site exists. I don't know how I would have coped today if I didn't have this point of contact. I'm feeling so very sad. Can't stop crying. I've taken some sedation to try and get through the rest of the day, but I don't know if it will be enough.
I wish my son cared more. I wish I wasn't such a waste of space. I wish he didn't feel like he has to run away. I wish things were different. I need a hug. That sounds self indulgent and needy. Sorry. Can't seem to get a grip.
I'm so pointless. An irrelevance. I've nothing to offer anyone.
No friends. No family. No one.
I'm isolated because of body dysmorphic disorder and general/social anxiety. I'm agrophobic because of these conditions.
I feel stranded in my prison again.
I felt like my son couldn't wait to get away. Back to his busy life. Away from his crazy mother and her 'problems'.
I know this is dreadful, but it helps to know that there are other people who have similar issues. Makes me feel less of a freak. That others may understand my pain.
I'm so glad this site exists. I don't know how I would have coped today if I didn't have this point of contact. I'm feeling so very sad. Can't stop crying. I've taken some sedation to try and get through the rest of the day, but I don't know if it will be enough.
I wish my son cared more. I wish I wasn't such a waste of space. I wish he didn't feel like he has to run away. I wish things were different. I need a hug. That sounds self indulgent and needy. Sorry. Can't seem to get a grip.
I'm so pointless. An irrelevance. I've nothing to offer anyone.