feege
25-11-05, 11:19
I have been off sick all week with 'sinuses' - actually just very dizzy and exhausted - doc said there was fluid in my ear. Got antibiotics on Tuesday but been too frightened to take them cos part of my anxiety is adverse reactions to drugs... But woke up this morning and just feel worse - no paid just fluid feeling in head! So I've just taken an antibiotic (it took me 2 hours to take it!) now I'm terrified!!!
I have had this dizziness on and off for 2 years - found out i had vertigo which was small granules in the fluid in the ear and had an epley maneouvre which settled it down, but it keeps coming back. Of course in the back of my mind I think I have a brain tumour. I have a lot of other health problems, ME, damaged vocal chords, a (benign apparently) kidney tumour as well as all the things that go with anxiety - disassociation, exhaustion, digestive problems etc. Added to which I am menopausal and have a mirena coil! Oh and I have a rash all over my arms and legs. I'm a physical and mental wreck!
I don't know how to keep proportion today - I'm ok if I'm busy but I've been at home all week. I have to go shopping today but the cold will hurt and I'm anxious about driving. Today is a very tough day for me! The only family I have is my 84 year old mother who is round the corner - I have to get her shopping toay as well, and my son who is in London - we are very close, but his wife has lymphoma and although in remission is due for her blood test today to see how she is doing - results on Tuesday - and he is very very anxious too naturally.
Sometimes I think I am amazing to cope with all that's going on - I have to get myself back to work on Monday to pay the mortgage, but I'm just so exhausted and frustrated with myself. I am naturally such a positive person but there is just too much going on.
Sorry to whinge - I just feel so frightened all the time - it's like my life is a pack of cards about to collapse! But I've been to this point so many times and found my way back.
Ok, pull myself together and get on.... It's so good to have somewhere to come and let it all out!
fee
I have had this dizziness on and off for 2 years - found out i had vertigo which was small granules in the fluid in the ear and had an epley maneouvre which settled it down, but it keeps coming back. Of course in the back of my mind I think I have a brain tumour. I have a lot of other health problems, ME, damaged vocal chords, a (benign apparently) kidney tumour as well as all the things that go with anxiety - disassociation, exhaustion, digestive problems etc. Added to which I am menopausal and have a mirena coil! Oh and I have a rash all over my arms and legs. I'm a physical and mental wreck!
I don't know how to keep proportion today - I'm ok if I'm busy but I've been at home all week. I have to go shopping today but the cold will hurt and I'm anxious about driving. Today is a very tough day for me! The only family I have is my 84 year old mother who is round the corner - I have to get her shopping toay as well, and my son who is in London - we are very close, but his wife has lymphoma and although in remission is due for her blood test today to see how she is doing - results on Tuesday - and he is very very anxious too naturally.
Sometimes I think I am amazing to cope with all that's going on - I have to get myself back to work on Monday to pay the mortgage, but I'm just so exhausted and frustrated with myself. I am naturally such a positive person but there is just too much going on.
Sorry to whinge - I just feel so frightened all the time - it's like my life is a pack of cards about to collapse! But I've been to this point so many times and found my way back.
Ok, pull myself together and get on.... It's so good to have somewhere to come and let it all out!
fee