Melliel
02-01-10, 18:14
Hi,
I am SO disappointed that I am having to ask for reassurance that I am o.k when only 2 nights ago I was definately going to give up on this HA.
So it all started about 4 weeks ago when i banged my leg and a big bruise appeared, this then got me checking it when I noticed I had another mole appear.
I have literally checked this thousands of times and have convinved and unconvinced myself it's cancerous.
It is one colour about 3mm and round. Whilst checking this mole I thought it would be wise to have a full inspection and have since become reunited with a mole I have had since I was about 7 (now 33). This one is round and raised and is one colour but is has a darker boarder.
This is all I can think about I am pre-occupied with thoughts of leaving my children and feel like breaking down on tears, my husband think's I am mad and say's that I am only happy if I have something to mither about and I go looking for things to be wrong with me.
I feel ill at the thought of having to go to the doctors so have decided to monitor it!
How can I move from one potential dodgie mole to another so quickly??
I want my life back, I'm tired of feeling so low and out of control of my anxieties.
I have 3 children a good job and a wonderful husband. I lost my mom to breast cancer almost 4 years ago now which seems to have escalated my health worries.
This past year I have convinced myself I have the following diseases:
Cervical Cancer
Skin cancer (on face)
Liver Cancer
Brain Tumor
HIV
Breast cancer
Stroke
Cervical Canver (again)
Skin Cancer (back)
Skin Cancer (inner thigh)
Skin Cancer (back of leg)
It's exhausting and I am SO fed up of being this irrational person.:weep:
Mel x
I am SO disappointed that I am having to ask for reassurance that I am o.k when only 2 nights ago I was definately going to give up on this HA.
So it all started about 4 weeks ago when i banged my leg and a big bruise appeared, this then got me checking it when I noticed I had another mole appear.
I have literally checked this thousands of times and have convinved and unconvinced myself it's cancerous.
It is one colour about 3mm and round. Whilst checking this mole I thought it would be wise to have a full inspection and have since become reunited with a mole I have had since I was about 7 (now 33). This one is round and raised and is one colour but is has a darker boarder.
This is all I can think about I am pre-occupied with thoughts of leaving my children and feel like breaking down on tears, my husband think's I am mad and say's that I am only happy if I have something to mither about and I go looking for things to be wrong with me.
I feel ill at the thought of having to go to the doctors so have decided to monitor it!
How can I move from one potential dodgie mole to another so quickly??
I want my life back, I'm tired of feeling so low and out of control of my anxieties.
I have 3 children a good job and a wonderful husband. I lost my mom to breast cancer almost 4 years ago now which seems to have escalated my health worries.
This past year I have convinced myself I have the following diseases:
Cervical Cancer
Skin cancer (on face)
Liver Cancer
Brain Tumor
HIV
Breast cancer
Stroke
Cervical Canver (again)
Skin Cancer (back)
Skin Cancer (inner thigh)
Skin Cancer (back of leg)
It's exhausting and I am SO fed up of being this irrational person.:weep:
Mel x