summersmum
03-01-10, 21:12
hey guys
basically i decided new year.. new start! i told myself i would get better. and o look what a surprise i am back to how i was at beggining! i fort i was doing so well and it seems its just creeped back up on me!
basically when i was first like this i just wanted to aattack my partner all the time! and for no reason what so ever.. i wud be soo snappy and loose my temper over anything! which all seemed to disappear aftter i started councilling.. my councilling sessions was ended cus they limited to 8.. in totally ive had 18.. i didnt mind my councilling ending as i felt i was alot better and surprise surprise i am back to being the nutty wreck i was b4!
for example today i asked my partner to put my daughter in his sisters car as i was going tesco with her.. and he was to busy with his car so i lost it.. and said fine i will do it myself,,, i asked him to becuz she is very heavy in a car seat and i was gettin her bag ready.. so i felt the urge to hit him so i hit the wall..
i mentioned to him about seeing the doctor again cus i hate feeling like this.. and he said yeh u r slightly stressy which gues what i lost it again! slightly stressy?? HELLO!! grrr even winding me up talking about it lol
does any 1 get this or can u offer any advise so fed up of feeling like this.. feel so down as i feel i came so far like i was scared of having my curtains open incase any 1looked in and i managed to open the curtains my self which is such a great acheivement for me.. however i feeel like ive taken about 100 steps back.. why now when i was doin so well!!
advise would be much appreciated!
summersmum x:weep:
basically i decided new year.. new start! i told myself i would get better. and o look what a surprise i am back to how i was at beggining! i fort i was doing so well and it seems its just creeped back up on me!
basically when i was first like this i just wanted to aattack my partner all the time! and for no reason what so ever.. i wud be soo snappy and loose my temper over anything! which all seemed to disappear aftter i started councilling.. my councilling sessions was ended cus they limited to 8.. in totally ive had 18.. i didnt mind my councilling ending as i felt i was alot better and surprise surprise i am back to being the nutty wreck i was b4!
for example today i asked my partner to put my daughter in his sisters car as i was going tesco with her.. and he was to busy with his car so i lost it.. and said fine i will do it myself,,, i asked him to becuz she is very heavy in a car seat and i was gettin her bag ready.. so i felt the urge to hit him so i hit the wall..
i mentioned to him about seeing the doctor again cus i hate feeling like this.. and he said yeh u r slightly stressy which gues what i lost it again! slightly stressy?? HELLO!! grrr even winding me up talking about it lol
does any 1 get this or can u offer any advise so fed up of feeling like this.. feel so down as i feel i came so far like i was scared of having my curtains open incase any 1looked in and i managed to open the curtains my self which is such a great acheivement for me.. however i feeel like ive taken about 100 steps back.. why now when i was doin so well!!
advise would be much appreciated!
summersmum x:weep: