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26-11-05, 15:31
Name is Paul
Country Australia
Age 29
Can stop reading now if you are not interested in an indepth idea of me :)
Anxiety started is mid 2000. Finally found out what it was in 2002 after staying indoors for 2 years scared of weverything including eating. Yes I basically slept scared for two whole years.
Went onto Aropax for 2 years and eventually got better. helped to know it was anxiety. Pills did help at the time but wont take them again.
Was an alcoholic all my life. Quit drinking 1 year ago (although I did cut down a lot when I got anxiety as it made it worse). Dont drink at all now and dont miss it. I am alive this way. (trust me I was a bad drinker)
Met a great girl who helped me thru things and recovery. Have a 2 year old son now. Gorgeous. Feel like crying right now from happiness. Had a hard last few days with a relapse after being off pills for a year or so and feeling great most of the time. Feeling good right now.
Went to the beach today and a mates house. Went for a cruise tonight (100kms away). Even though I was S**t scared and felt like my head was going to explode I went anyway. Ran around the block for fitness. Drank a lot of water.
Basically got scared with everything I did today but I think it will help me. Scared I pee too much today but its from the water. Scared of everything and constant head hurts and pains and ears hurt. Freaks me out more but I am trying to stay positive in this relapse. I have noticed with the help of my new therapist (one visit so far) that I am actually depressed and dont look forward to anything or see good in anything. This post I am saying good things as they are but up until now I didnt think that way.
Also I apparently set goals too high and unachievable mostly and even if I reach them then I set another one even higher so I never let myself be happy as I am never good enough etc. I think that is a biggy and mostly from how I was treated by my father (not bad but his way) when I was young and learnt his ways.
Anyway, sorry for the rant and life story.
I guess I am saying: I had it, I conquered it and now I got it back and he wants a re-match. I will beat it again - just very unexpected and second time around its more depressing but I know how to handle it more and I am not stopping doing things this time. I will win and I will think positive indeed!
Thank You for listening :)
Paul
I often think anxious people are either very smart and use their brains a lot (maybe in the wrong way and think TOO much) and/or very nice people who try to please everyone.[^]
Country Australia
Age 29
Can stop reading now if you are not interested in an indepth idea of me :)
Anxiety started is mid 2000. Finally found out what it was in 2002 after staying indoors for 2 years scared of weverything including eating. Yes I basically slept scared for two whole years.
Went onto Aropax for 2 years and eventually got better. helped to know it was anxiety. Pills did help at the time but wont take them again.
Was an alcoholic all my life. Quit drinking 1 year ago (although I did cut down a lot when I got anxiety as it made it worse). Dont drink at all now and dont miss it. I am alive this way. (trust me I was a bad drinker)
Met a great girl who helped me thru things and recovery. Have a 2 year old son now. Gorgeous. Feel like crying right now from happiness. Had a hard last few days with a relapse after being off pills for a year or so and feeling great most of the time. Feeling good right now.
Went to the beach today and a mates house. Went for a cruise tonight (100kms away). Even though I was S**t scared and felt like my head was going to explode I went anyway. Ran around the block for fitness. Drank a lot of water.
Basically got scared with everything I did today but I think it will help me. Scared I pee too much today but its from the water. Scared of everything and constant head hurts and pains and ears hurt. Freaks me out more but I am trying to stay positive in this relapse. I have noticed with the help of my new therapist (one visit so far) that I am actually depressed and dont look forward to anything or see good in anything. This post I am saying good things as they are but up until now I didnt think that way.
Also I apparently set goals too high and unachievable mostly and even if I reach them then I set another one even higher so I never let myself be happy as I am never good enough etc. I think that is a biggy and mostly from how I was treated by my father (not bad but his way) when I was young and learnt his ways.
Anyway, sorry for the rant and life story.
I guess I am saying: I had it, I conquered it and now I got it back and he wants a re-match. I will beat it again - just very unexpected and second time around its more depressing but I know how to handle it more and I am not stopping doing things this time. I will win and I will think positive indeed!
Thank You for listening :)
Paul
I often think anxious people are either very smart and use their brains a lot (maybe in the wrong way and think TOO much) and/or very nice people who try to please everyone.[^]