Beezlee
12-01-10, 11:05
Hello everyone,
I feel really out of control at the moment with so many irrational thoughts.
For a long time being at home was the only place I felt safe from my anxiety and reasonably relaxed but now it seems the tables have turned and my OCD/Anxiety is making me feel terrible when I'm in the house alone.
It started in my old place, the Landlord was a bit slack with maintenence and the Boiler was really old. After reading something online about CO2? poisoning I started to worry and scare myself and have this fear coming back frequently.
Next thing was planes, we lived close to and airport and currently an RAF base and every time a plane flies past I get distressed and really believe it will hit the house, especially the fighter jets. It seems silly when I read that back to myself but It feels very real when it's happening.
And just yesterday my partner mentioned a story about a hot water tank exploding because of frozen pipes and now that's become a major concern.
My brain seems to latch on to anything horrific and unlikely and then turns it into something that seems inevitable.
This has been going on for months now and I'm sick of worrying about dying in my own house and being unable to relax like I used too and wondering if maybe I should get on some medication for this.:unsure:
I feel really out of control at the moment with so many irrational thoughts.
For a long time being at home was the only place I felt safe from my anxiety and reasonably relaxed but now it seems the tables have turned and my OCD/Anxiety is making me feel terrible when I'm in the house alone.
It started in my old place, the Landlord was a bit slack with maintenence and the Boiler was really old. After reading something online about CO2? poisoning I started to worry and scare myself and have this fear coming back frequently.
Next thing was planes, we lived close to and airport and currently an RAF base and every time a plane flies past I get distressed and really believe it will hit the house, especially the fighter jets. It seems silly when I read that back to myself but It feels very real when it's happening.
And just yesterday my partner mentioned a story about a hot water tank exploding because of frozen pipes and now that's become a major concern.
My brain seems to latch on to anything horrific and unlikely and then turns it into something that seems inevitable.
This has been going on for months now and I'm sick of worrying about dying in my own house and being unable to relax like I used too and wondering if maybe I should get on some medication for this.:unsure: