mandie
12-01-10, 13:35
Hi
Im not sure why im writing this.
I just feel so down and i just dont no what to do
I have been signed off work since 2008 due to my boss giving me a hard time and causing my panick attacks.
My work have been no support whatsoever, and i feel had they bothered to keep in contact with me while i was off, maybe i could of gone back to work sooner.
Iv been to occupational health like they suggested and they have told my work it would not be in my best interest to go back.
Im not going to resign from my job, because i feel i have been pushed out of my job. its to long to go into, but i have felt isolated for quite a few years there and in the end everything got to much.
I feel like i cant move on while this is hanging over me.
I have had cbt, i am seeing a physcologist now, but my panick attacks are coming back again and i find myself cutting off from everything.
I have trouble going into supermarkets and anywhere with big crowds.
My dad has been very ill for the past 18 months and that has been very stressful
Im a single parent with a 9 year old and i feel im letting her down. I try not to show how im feeling in front of her but lately i dont want to do anything.
I need to sort my life out and i no only i can do that, but i dont no where to start
everything is a big effort for me at the moment, for instance, even keeping my home clean is hard, i dont have the energy or enthusiasm for anything.
Im really tearful which isnt like me and i just cant see how things will get any better.
there are other things going on which are prob making things worse but i think iv gone on enough!
My anxiety is through the roof, im sitting here feeling really liteheaded and spaced out. I just want to feel right again :weep:
love mandie x
Im not sure why im writing this.
I just feel so down and i just dont no what to do
I have been signed off work since 2008 due to my boss giving me a hard time and causing my panick attacks.
My work have been no support whatsoever, and i feel had they bothered to keep in contact with me while i was off, maybe i could of gone back to work sooner.
Iv been to occupational health like they suggested and they have told my work it would not be in my best interest to go back.
Im not going to resign from my job, because i feel i have been pushed out of my job. its to long to go into, but i have felt isolated for quite a few years there and in the end everything got to much.
I feel like i cant move on while this is hanging over me.
I have had cbt, i am seeing a physcologist now, but my panick attacks are coming back again and i find myself cutting off from everything.
I have trouble going into supermarkets and anywhere with big crowds.
My dad has been very ill for the past 18 months and that has been very stressful
Im a single parent with a 9 year old and i feel im letting her down. I try not to show how im feeling in front of her but lately i dont want to do anything.
I need to sort my life out and i no only i can do that, but i dont no where to start
everything is a big effort for me at the moment, for instance, even keeping my home clean is hard, i dont have the energy or enthusiasm for anything.
Im really tearful which isnt like me and i just cant see how things will get any better.
there are other things going on which are prob making things worse but i think iv gone on enough!
My anxiety is through the roof, im sitting here feeling really liteheaded and spaced out. I just want to feel right again :weep:
love mandie x