lotus
28-11-05, 16:21
The sun was shining today. It was nice and warm even though Christmas is coming soon. And I started thinking about the way I live my life ... I've become a prisoner of my own fears, surrounded by boundaries and limitations that I have created for myself, hidden from the world, lost and locked in my mind, thinking that inside my little world I'm safe from harm ... but that's not real, it's not true. Peace of mind comes from whithin, and I know that it's not crowded places, public transportation, being away from home that are making me feel bad. It's something inside me that's torturing me. I feel that I'm blocked in a way, I feel that something inside me is not quite right, and I know that I could be so much more than what I am right know, if only I could set myself free ... I know that there's life beyond fear, anxiety and frustration, there's so much to be seen and done, there are so many opportunities, there's so much beauty and happiness. And I wonder, what is it that's holding us prisoners? What are we so afraid of? Life, death, ouselves, other people, what? Why can't we find peace and harmony? And I wonder whether we would be so afraid to be ouselves and to live the way we want to if we knew that tomorrow would be the last day of our lives ...