zowiebowie
17-01-10, 17:26
Hi, I have found this site...thankfully...via Anxiety Today on FB.
My story...I have suffered on a off from depression since 1995. I have been able to manage it by taking the right meds and councelling and it I have usually managed to get it under control and lead a normal productive life. That was until last Novemeber...I suffered from a flu virus which apparently developed into a post-viral syndrome. During this time I experienced feeling I had never had before. I have since found out I was having panic attacks, having never had one before (or so I thought) I didn't know what on Earth was happening to me. I thought I was genuingly going insane. I was seen by the Crisis Team at the hospital who explained my state was due to anxiety and I was put on Citalopram. Unfortunately these turned me into an insomniac and so did the Fluoxatine that I was later put on. During this time I was given Lorazapam to help me cope with the worst moments which worked some of the time but obviously I couldn't take them for very long. I am now on 45mg of Mirtazipine and have been for about 5 weeks. I have had 2 months off work and my studies; depression I have had in the past has never caused me to have time off anything. After reading so much, I think have all the traits of someone who could suffer from anxiety; I have had problems with producing too much adrenalin in the past and I am generally a worrier and strive for perfection. I can honestly say though, up to getting the viral infection, I believe I was perfectly happy. Now, I really just feel as though I am simply concentrating on getting through each day. I cannot turn my mind off at all. I have tried so many things...yoga, meditation, self help books, prayer, you name it I have tried it. My doctor said I should stop trying so hard to will myself better, but I just want to feel human again and enjoy life. I am glad I have found this site as the information I have read so far has been like a revelation.
My story...I have suffered on a off from depression since 1995. I have been able to manage it by taking the right meds and councelling and it I have usually managed to get it under control and lead a normal productive life. That was until last Novemeber...I suffered from a flu virus which apparently developed into a post-viral syndrome. During this time I experienced feeling I had never had before. I have since found out I was having panic attacks, having never had one before (or so I thought) I didn't know what on Earth was happening to me. I thought I was genuingly going insane. I was seen by the Crisis Team at the hospital who explained my state was due to anxiety and I was put on Citalopram. Unfortunately these turned me into an insomniac and so did the Fluoxatine that I was later put on. During this time I was given Lorazapam to help me cope with the worst moments which worked some of the time but obviously I couldn't take them for very long. I am now on 45mg of Mirtazipine and have been for about 5 weeks. I have had 2 months off work and my studies; depression I have had in the past has never caused me to have time off anything. After reading so much, I think have all the traits of someone who could suffer from anxiety; I have had problems with producing too much adrenalin in the past and I am generally a worrier and strive for perfection. I can honestly say though, up to getting the viral infection, I believe I was perfectly happy. Now, I really just feel as though I am simply concentrating on getting through each day. I cannot turn my mind off at all. I have tried so many things...yoga, meditation, self help books, prayer, you name it I have tried it. My doctor said I should stop trying so hard to will myself better, but I just want to feel human again and enjoy life. I am glad I have found this site as the information I have read so far has been like a revelation.