Zingara
18-01-10, 10:51
Hi everyone,
I don't know if anyone will remember me - I was on here all the time a couple of years ago. I kind of stopped posting gradually - not even sure why, it wasn't that I got better so much as I just ran out of things to say! But this is a great site - I still have a lot of friends from on here that i keep in touch with. If anyone does remember me please say hello, as I feel kind of sad that most of my old friends aren't on here any more.
I had a breakdown following an operation in Sept 07. Since then life has been a dark tunnel, to be honest I am kind of surprised I'm still here. I am 31 and long term unemployed. I have very severe general anxiety, severe emetophobia, panic attacks, difficulty with eating and intermittent OCD. I also have a lot of emotional problems arising out of a difficult childhood, complicated family relationships, and being badly bullied at school.
I don't have a specific question, just finding life so hard at the moment - this winter is a nightmare for me. I am so claustrophobic due to the cold and dark - thank God the snow has melted - but everything is so hard! I just feel blank and empty, it was almost easier during the days when I cried all the time, now I am more resigned to what is happening - or not happening - but I feel so lost, it's hard to put into words.
Anyway, thanks for reading.
I don't know if anyone will remember me - I was on here all the time a couple of years ago. I kind of stopped posting gradually - not even sure why, it wasn't that I got better so much as I just ran out of things to say! But this is a great site - I still have a lot of friends from on here that i keep in touch with. If anyone does remember me please say hello, as I feel kind of sad that most of my old friends aren't on here any more.
I had a breakdown following an operation in Sept 07. Since then life has been a dark tunnel, to be honest I am kind of surprised I'm still here. I am 31 and long term unemployed. I have very severe general anxiety, severe emetophobia, panic attacks, difficulty with eating and intermittent OCD. I also have a lot of emotional problems arising out of a difficult childhood, complicated family relationships, and being badly bullied at school.
I don't have a specific question, just finding life so hard at the moment - this winter is a nightmare for me. I am so claustrophobic due to the cold and dark - thank God the snow has melted - but everything is so hard! I just feel blank and empty, it was almost easier during the days when I cried all the time, now I am more resigned to what is happening - or not happening - but I feel so lost, it's hard to put into words.
Anyway, thanks for reading.