laurelcanyon
18-01-10, 21:12
Hello,
I've just joined up after reading some of the posts and feeling hugely relieved that i'm not alone in my "oddness". I'm not sure if this is the right place to be expressing all this but here goes...
I live alone and work from home so don't get out much. Although I could afford to go out and socialise a couple of times a month I usually choose not to and instead my best friend comes to visit. She is like a sister to me, and is the only one who in many cases sees and understands (or at least tries to accept) my weirdness. I always feel safe when she is around. I don't have a boyfriend and find it very hard to meet people. I would love nothing more than have a partner who could understand my problems and accept them.
I have what would probably be classed as an obsessive routine every day - up at same time, lunch at same time, shower at same time and often the same foods and drink each day. When my routine is disrupted I get grumpy, and definitely into a bit of a panic. For instance, if I don't get to my bed at the alloted time, if i'm away with work and have to eat different things at different times from usual.
When people come to stay I can't cope with their stuff being around. I clean immediately after they leave as I hate their germs on on my things (toilet, sofa, bed etc).
I become obsessed with "projects", usually things around the home maybe related to decor. I'll use the internet to research something to death, then buy things and build things. I also collect things obsessively and have from a veyr early age.
In the last 2 years I started to suffer from anxiety when I leave the house, always worried i'll get diarrhoa (as anxiety brings it on), particularly if I have to travel for work (Airplane), go out for dinner with friends etc. The last couple of times I had to travel I almost couldn't go through with it but forced myself. It appears to get worse each time but this is probably just me worrying/focusing on it. My heart races, I sweat, have the diarrhoa etc
I have spoken to the dr and she sent me for a heart monitor thingy because I mentioned the palpatations. I haven't gone back although I know I should, I don't know where to start explaining all the aspects of how I feel.
I have a very bad temper that is often irrational, and although I have never been violent I often imagine hitting the person or thing that's annoying me. I can be annoyed very easily.
So there you have it. A few of my issues summarised. I really feel I'll get something from this forum and in time maybe even be able to help others.
thanks,
laurel :)
I've just joined up after reading some of the posts and feeling hugely relieved that i'm not alone in my "oddness". I'm not sure if this is the right place to be expressing all this but here goes...
I live alone and work from home so don't get out much. Although I could afford to go out and socialise a couple of times a month I usually choose not to and instead my best friend comes to visit. She is like a sister to me, and is the only one who in many cases sees and understands (or at least tries to accept) my weirdness. I always feel safe when she is around. I don't have a boyfriend and find it very hard to meet people. I would love nothing more than have a partner who could understand my problems and accept them.
I have what would probably be classed as an obsessive routine every day - up at same time, lunch at same time, shower at same time and often the same foods and drink each day. When my routine is disrupted I get grumpy, and definitely into a bit of a panic. For instance, if I don't get to my bed at the alloted time, if i'm away with work and have to eat different things at different times from usual.
When people come to stay I can't cope with their stuff being around. I clean immediately after they leave as I hate their germs on on my things (toilet, sofa, bed etc).
I become obsessed with "projects", usually things around the home maybe related to decor. I'll use the internet to research something to death, then buy things and build things. I also collect things obsessively and have from a veyr early age.
In the last 2 years I started to suffer from anxiety when I leave the house, always worried i'll get diarrhoa (as anxiety brings it on), particularly if I have to travel for work (Airplane), go out for dinner with friends etc. The last couple of times I had to travel I almost couldn't go through with it but forced myself. It appears to get worse each time but this is probably just me worrying/focusing on it. My heart races, I sweat, have the diarrhoa etc
I have spoken to the dr and she sent me for a heart monitor thingy because I mentioned the palpatations. I haven't gone back although I know I should, I don't know where to start explaining all the aspects of how I feel.
I have a very bad temper that is often irrational, and although I have never been violent I often imagine hitting the person or thing that's annoying me. I can be annoyed very easily.
So there you have it. A few of my issues summarised. I really feel I'll get something from this forum and in time maybe even be able to help others.
thanks,
laurel :)