kitty
21-12-05, 19:12
Hi all,
I know its been a while since i last posted on here, thats all because i had stoped harming myself and was sorted out my life went back on track and well lets just say im off the rails totaly! :(:(
Me and my Partner aren't getting married no more as she was cheating on me (not happy about[V])
I think the whole reason why i have gone back down this road is because of her and the fact that she put me down so much.
She's took everythin! and i mean everything including the TV's and my Fish (how petty do u need to get?) well at least i kept the cat, my computer and bed![^]
I sat here the other night thinking who would miss me if i went!
I wrote a poem as well here it is;
In my darkest moments
When the air around me
Becomes to thick to breath
I sit there
With my eyes closed
Feeling the tears
Well up behind my eyes
Tears that have
Raely seen the light
Of day
Sitting there i think
As i have
For far too long
How would my death affect others
Would they be sad
Would they be mad
Would they be confused
Would they wish they never had met me
So they wouldnot have to care
I know some would feel pain
If i was lost
To this world
Yet i still wonder
If those would
Feel that pain
Could they live
One day with my pain
The pain that has been
The back drop
To my life for so long
That without it
Im lost
For i know it would hurt others
If i was to be gone
But it hurts me
To open my eyes eachday
To close them each night
To the door into the world
To sit in my room and continue to breath
I want this pain to be gone
I want to breath
I want to cry
And all i want to feel
Something other than pain
For more than a few seconds.
sorry its a bit long but its from my heart n i wanted to share it with someone other than my cat!
thank you for listening to me
kym aka kitty :( [:X]
I know its been a while since i last posted on here, thats all because i had stoped harming myself and was sorted out my life went back on track and well lets just say im off the rails totaly! :(:(
Me and my Partner aren't getting married no more as she was cheating on me (not happy about[V])
I think the whole reason why i have gone back down this road is because of her and the fact that she put me down so much.
She's took everythin! and i mean everything including the TV's and my Fish (how petty do u need to get?) well at least i kept the cat, my computer and bed![^]
I sat here the other night thinking who would miss me if i went!
I wrote a poem as well here it is;
In my darkest moments
When the air around me
Becomes to thick to breath
I sit there
With my eyes closed
Feeling the tears
Well up behind my eyes
Tears that have
Raely seen the light
Of day
Sitting there i think
As i have
For far too long
How would my death affect others
Would they be sad
Would they be mad
Would they be confused
Would they wish they never had met me
So they wouldnot have to care
I know some would feel pain
If i was lost
To this world
Yet i still wonder
If those would
Feel that pain
Could they live
One day with my pain
The pain that has been
The back drop
To my life for so long
That without it
Im lost
For i know it would hurt others
If i was to be gone
But it hurts me
To open my eyes eachday
To close them each night
To the door into the world
To sit in my room and continue to breath
I want this pain to be gone
I want to breath
I want to cry
And all i want to feel
Something other than pain
For more than a few seconds.
sorry its a bit long but its from my heart n i wanted to share it with someone other than my cat!
thank you for listening to me
kym aka kitty :( [:X]