Its back fokes!

[kitty]

Hi all,

I know its been a while since i last posted on here, thats all because i had stoped harming myself and was sorted out my life went back on track and well lets just say im off the rails totaly! :(:(
Me and my Partner aren't getting married no more as she was cheating on me (not happy about[V])
I think the whole reason why i have gone back down this road is because of her and the fact that she put me down so much.
She's took everythin! and i mean everything including the TV's and my Fish (how petty do u need to get?) well at least i kept the cat, my computer and bed![^]
I sat here the other night thinking who would miss me if i went!
I wrote a poem as well here it is;


In my darkest moments
When the air around me
Becomes to thick to breath

I sit there
With my eyes closed
Feeling the tears
Well up behind my eyes

Tears that have
Raely seen the light
Of day

Sitting there i think
As i have
For far too long

How would my death affect others
Would they be sad
Would they be mad
Would they be confused
Would they wish they never had met me

So they wouldnot have to care

I know some would feel pain
If i was lost
To this world

Yet i still wonder
If those would
Feel that pain

Could they live
One day with my pain
The pain that has been
The back drop
To my life for so long
That without it
Im lost

For i know it would hurt others
If i was to be gone
But it hurts me

To open my eyes eachday
To close them each night
To the door into the world
To sit in my room and continue to breath

I want this pain to be gone
I want to breath
I want to cry
And all i want to feel
Something other than pain
For more than a few seconds.


sorry its a bit long but its from my heart n i wanted to share it with someone other than my cat!

thank you for listening to me
kym aka kitty :( [:X]

[Karen]

Hi Kym

Sorry you are not feeling too good right now. However, this isn't square one and it is perfectly understandable that you feel low following the break up of your relationship.

Take some time out for yourself and treat yourself well. It would help to spend time with friends and/or family if you can and to keep yourself distracted from dwelling on the negative thoughts.

It will take time to come to terms with what's happened and move on but you will get there.

We are here for you.

Karen



It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere.

[clickaway]

Hi Kym,

You may have lost your partner and some other things, but please remember what you still have around you.

Important Things

like your bed for comfort
your home for peace and privacy
your computer for a lifeline
your cat for company
your poetry for feelings

and No. 1 on the list

You for anything and anyone you want to be

Hold on there and take care,


Ray

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance.
~Mark Sanders and Tia Sillers