daisycake
22-01-10, 08:27
OK Im not sure if this is in the right place? The thing is, when I was at school I used to get bullied and I had a lot of problems at home. I had a teacher from the age of 12-17 and I used to go and sit in her classroom speaking to her for hours because I felt safe there, I used to stay on after school. She used to really make me feel safe and that she cared about me. I went back to see her the other day, as no contact outside of school at all, and all those feelings came rushing back. When walking out I felt awful as I wasn't sure if I'll ever see her again. ObviouslyI do want to but I don't know how. She's providing a reference for me, so can I write and say thanks once I hear about the job - do you think she would get the letter if I sent it into the school? She used to go to my Uni as well, and stayed in the same halls as me - which is very reassuring, makes me feel a lot more comfortable. The only problem is that in my head I wish I'd never met her as then I wouldn't know what it feels like to miss her.. Any advice on what I can do? Im not sure if this is really anxiety or just me being stupid, but I had to vent somewhere.