freja
22-01-10, 21:28
Hello everyone. I'm new to the forum and decided to make a thread since I've been having a lot of symptoms lately and everybody keeps telling me that they are all caused by anxiety. I'm going to see my doctor next week.
First of all, I'm sixteen. I've had obsessive-compulsive behavior (I'm saying 'behavior' not 'disorder' because I haven't actually been diagnosed) since I was 6 or 7. It was really bad when I was 10 years old or so, now it has gotten better - I don't have the urge to repeat my actions/movements all the time and I don't constantly organize things. I also suffered from panic attacks when I was 13-14. Took some antidepressants for some time but they didn't help much.
About 2 years ago I started having headaches. Mostly they are tension-like and mild/moderate but sometimes they can be pretty sharp. I went to several doctors and they all kept telling me that there is not a serious underlying cause. I was convinced that I have a brain tumor. Finally I had an MRI done and it showed that everything is normal.
But now, for the past few months I've been having TONS of symptoms in different places of my body. Like:
*I feel like my muscles are pulsating. This usually happens in my legs and buttocks and esp. when I am lying down. But it can happen anywhere in my body at any time.
*I have lighter periods than normal. I usually have heavy flow with dark, thick blood, but lately it has been light in both texture and color.
*Alternating diarrhea and constipation. I had diarrhea for two days around christmas time. Then I had constipation for weeks. Then my stool was normal for a few days. And now I have diarrhea again. And sometimes there's weird white/light yellow slime in it.
*Around christmas time I found a hard, not movable lump in my neck (back of my neck, not front. It's kind of on the lower part of my neck, pretty close to my spine).
*I have constant hissing sound in my ears. It doesn't go away not even for a second. Sometimes I hear a beep, it usually lasts for 30 seconds.
*I have a lot of gas, I burp a lot and pass gas a lot (it doesn't smell). I also have pretty bad stomach pains from time to time. And a lot of loud sounds in my stomach even when I'm not hungry. Like.. gurgling and whiny sounds.
*I've had a sore throat for months now (no cough). I tried to cure it but it doesn't go away no matter what I do.
*I have random chills. And sometimes my palms get really sweaty and my body gets all warm/hot, but I don't have a fever.
I know that a lot of these symptom suggest that I have HIV. First I thought it was impossible, because I've never had an intercourse and I've never used needles. But then I remembered that when I was 11-13 I used to use my dad's wife's razor 20-30 times without her knowing. I cut my legs a lot of the times when I shaved with it. And now I'm concerned that I might have HIV. I know the chances are very slim, because she might not even have HIV and it doesn't survive in the air for long, but I'm still very scared.
Long post, sorry. Also sorry for any grammar mistakes and all. My english isn't very good.
EDIT: Also, I have a visible bump in the area where I drew a red dot. I noticed this months ago, but I have no idea how long it's been there. It feels like bone. Is it just that one side of my ribs is bigger than the other? Or are there maybe lymph nodes in that area that are swollen?
http://i45.tinypic.com/30tidr9.jpg
First of all, I'm sixteen. I've had obsessive-compulsive behavior (I'm saying 'behavior' not 'disorder' because I haven't actually been diagnosed) since I was 6 or 7. It was really bad when I was 10 years old or so, now it has gotten better - I don't have the urge to repeat my actions/movements all the time and I don't constantly organize things. I also suffered from panic attacks when I was 13-14. Took some antidepressants for some time but they didn't help much.
About 2 years ago I started having headaches. Mostly they are tension-like and mild/moderate but sometimes they can be pretty sharp. I went to several doctors and they all kept telling me that there is not a serious underlying cause. I was convinced that I have a brain tumor. Finally I had an MRI done and it showed that everything is normal.
But now, for the past few months I've been having TONS of symptoms in different places of my body. Like:
*I feel like my muscles are pulsating. This usually happens in my legs and buttocks and esp. when I am lying down. But it can happen anywhere in my body at any time.
*I have lighter periods than normal. I usually have heavy flow with dark, thick blood, but lately it has been light in both texture and color.
*Alternating diarrhea and constipation. I had diarrhea for two days around christmas time. Then I had constipation for weeks. Then my stool was normal for a few days. And now I have diarrhea again. And sometimes there's weird white/light yellow slime in it.
*Around christmas time I found a hard, not movable lump in my neck (back of my neck, not front. It's kind of on the lower part of my neck, pretty close to my spine).
*I have constant hissing sound in my ears. It doesn't go away not even for a second. Sometimes I hear a beep, it usually lasts for 30 seconds.
*I have a lot of gas, I burp a lot and pass gas a lot (it doesn't smell). I also have pretty bad stomach pains from time to time. And a lot of loud sounds in my stomach even when I'm not hungry. Like.. gurgling and whiny sounds.
*I've had a sore throat for months now (no cough). I tried to cure it but it doesn't go away no matter what I do.
*I have random chills. And sometimes my palms get really sweaty and my body gets all warm/hot, but I don't have a fever.
I know that a lot of these symptom suggest that I have HIV. First I thought it was impossible, because I've never had an intercourse and I've never used needles. But then I remembered that when I was 11-13 I used to use my dad's wife's razor 20-30 times without her knowing. I cut my legs a lot of the times when I shaved with it. And now I'm concerned that I might have HIV. I know the chances are very slim, because she might not even have HIV and it doesn't survive in the air for long, but I'm still very scared.
Long post, sorry. Also sorry for any grammar mistakes and all. My english isn't very good.
EDIT: Also, I have a visible bump in the area where I drew a red dot. I noticed this months ago, but I have no idea how long it's been there. It feels like bone. Is it just that one side of my ribs is bigger than the other? Or are there maybe lymph nodes in that area that are swollen?
http://i45.tinypic.com/30tidr9.jpg