fazman3000
23-01-10, 18:16
First I apologize for not being on here much recently, I'm starting to turn into one of those people who only come on here when they're actually facing problems instead of coming back to help others when they're on a high. So I'm sorry for that.
I haven't had a full on panic attack for over a month now and I am so grateful for that. In fact for that time I've been a lot better.
Suddenly I seem to be back in the anxiety loop. I can't pinpoint how it came a around again though. I had one slightly anxious day, then the next day I woke up late and felt really rough, extremely sensitive to light, wary of other people, didn't want to leave the house etc. I've been like this every day since now and that was a week ago.
I feel so down every day, whilst I'm not panicking I just feel so low and unenergetic but I can't relax. I keep getting hit with intense fear and start worrying about...... nothing! I don't get it.
I feel like I'm in a goldfish bowl with tunnel vision. Everything looks so dark but the lights are blinding. I oversleep every night. I'm literally sleeping for 12 hours minimum and waking up feeling like shit. I understanding that I'm dreaming ten-fold because of the worrying and that's why I'm oversleeping but I could really do without it.
I've been out of work for 4 months now which doesn't help. I have work coming up soon so I'm not worried not having work. It's just waking up and having no reason to be awake. I'm a musician so if I'm not out working then I'm indoors all day writing music.
I don't know what I'm asking for here. Just scrounging for nice words and some help really.
Cheers. :weep:
I haven't had a full on panic attack for over a month now and I am so grateful for that. In fact for that time I've been a lot better.
Suddenly I seem to be back in the anxiety loop. I can't pinpoint how it came a around again though. I had one slightly anxious day, then the next day I woke up late and felt really rough, extremely sensitive to light, wary of other people, didn't want to leave the house etc. I've been like this every day since now and that was a week ago.
I feel so down every day, whilst I'm not panicking I just feel so low and unenergetic but I can't relax. I keep getting hit with intense fear and start worrying about...... nothing! I don't get it.
I feel like I'm in a goldfish bowl with tunnel vision. Everything looks so dark but the lights are blinding. I oversleep every night. I'm literally sleeping for 12 hours minimum and waking up feeling like shit. I understanding that I'm dreaming ten-fold because of the worrying and that's why I'm oversleeping but I could really do without it.
I've been out of work for 4 months now which doesn't help. I have work coming up soon so I'm not worried not having work. It's just waking up and having no reason to be awake. I'm a musician so if I'm not out working then I'm indoors all day writing music.
I don't know what I'm asking for here. Just scrounging for nice words and some help really.
Cheers. :weep: