carter
23-01-10, 23:15
hi all,
its been a horrible 4 months but in finally im not too bad and im trying my best to get out and about...but some days i get really down felling like crap all the dam time....
im pleased to say after trying various meds....which made me worse... im now drug free..
tryed group cbt to be honest it was not for me badly organised and felt like school....didnt see the point...to stick with it to be fair...and i was pretty disapointed with the whole thing....
im currently having counciling which to be honest ive found really good to vent......my frustratons cause for me doing things has never been a problem to do things and i used big socialite so this is killing me at the min the things i love to do i can't......i feel like my world has ended...
sorry for the rant well im going to try going back to work on a fased basis doing 4 hours a week and im scared...why i have no bloody idea...my boss came to visit to discuss and i was really nervous why i have no idea... did it anyway .....
i seem to think that people can notice im on edge but they cant i know this but it does not stop me feeling nervous.....i dont drink any more no caffine even chocolate, ive even stopped looking for a cure cause lets be honest the best cure is to crack on and get on with it little by little...not too much but test yourself......and the more you do it the easier it is......
so i know all the theroy...but this does not stop me feeling like im about to be shot or somthing............i have the added strain on the fact that ive gotta go back as im not getting paid sick anymore...
im so scared....its unreal......help.....so frustrated
hopefully one day ill feel better .....ummmmmmhhhhhhhhhh
its been a horrible 4 months but in finally im not too bad and im trying my best to get out and about...but some days i get really down felling like crap all the dam time....
im pleased to say after trying various meds....which made me worse... im now drug free..
tryed group cbt to be honest it was not for me badly organised and felt like school....didnt see the point...to stick with it to be fair...and i was pretty disapointed with the whole thing....
im currently having counciling which to be honest ive found really good to vent......my frustratons cause for me doing things has never been a problem to do things and i used big socialite so this is killing me at the min the things i love to do i can't......i feel like my world has ended...
sorry for the rant well im going to try going back to work on a fased basis doing 4 hours a week and im scared...why i have no bloody idea...my boss came to visit to discuss and i was really nervous why i have no idea... did it anyway .....
i seem to think that people can notice im on edge but they cant i know this but it does not stop me feeling nervous.....i dont drink any more no caffine even chocolate, ive even stopped looking for a cure cause lets be honest the best cure is to crack on and get on with it little by little...not too much but test yourself......and the more you do it the easier it is......
so i know all the theroy...but this does not stop me feeling like im about to be shot or somthing............i have the added strain on the fact that ive gotta go back as im not getting paid sick anymore...
im so scared....its unreal......help.....so frustrated
hopefully one day ill feel better .....ummmmmmhhhhhhhhhh