Andromeda
29-01-10, 12:11
Hello all , have had a few days off here since my bad ordeal at the weekend , i've actually been much more relaxed over the past few days , my symptoms have been on the hush , and if i got any i just ignored them , i even managed to go into town on wednesday by myself , i went to hobby craft and i went to boots :D i queued for a bus , i queued to pay , yes i was very uncomfortable but i did it , so thats good !
Now i'm back just because i would like everyones thoughts on something .
today i have been left alone and i'm quite nervous ! i've always hated being alone since i was little , i mean i don't want people constantly in my face , but just knowing someone was in the same building made me feel safe !
i just get these awful thoughts when i'm on my own , what if i die , no one will help me , if i have a heart attack no one will ring an ambulance in time and i will die , if i fall no one will find me etcetc
it seems pretty silly when i think about it rationally , as i can't expect to have someone with me all the time but i can't help the thoughts , i know distraction will probably be the best advice anyone can give , so i'm heading out now - at least if i 'die' it will be in public so i won't have to be on my own ! argh
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Now i'm back just because i would like everyones thoughts on something .
today i have been left alone and i'm quite nervous ! i've always hated being alone since i was little , i mean i don't want people constantly in my face , but just knowing someone was in the same building made me feel safe !
i just get these awful thoughts when i'm on my own , what if i die , no one will help me , if i have a heart attack no one will ring an ambulance in time and i will die , if i fall no one will find me etcetc
it seems pretty silly when i think about it rationally , as i can't expect to have someone with me all the time but i can't help the thoughts , i know distraction will probably be the best advice anyone can give , so i'm heading out now - at least if i 'die' it will be in public so i won't have to be on my own ! argh
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