katamaridamacy
30-01-10, 20:35
Hi All,
I'd just like somewhere to ramble a bit if that's okay, and for anyone reading to help with some reassuring words.
I've suffered from panic/anxiety for coming up to ten years. After overcoming the 'traditional' panic attack symptoms, I've spent the last few years battling health anxiety that has stopped me going out and socialising a lot.
All of this has resulted in what I *think* is mild depression, and a pre-occupation with death. Not suicidal thoughts or anything, but a 'what's the point?' question in my head a lot... if we're, y'know, all going to die. I'm not even that scared about it... just preoccupied. So annoying. I can't relax like I used to... even watching TV. The days seem long and drawn out because I know it'll be on my mind, and I'm kinda glad when I can get to bed.
I never, ever used to feel like this... and knowing that other people are getting on fine and not feeling like this (I'm only 25), makes me worse I think.
I have never told anyone about the death anxiety, but am considering booking CBT sessions next week. Will they help? I am already taking Citalopram for anxiety.
Is this all just a symptom of depression, or even loneliness (I work at home, and don't go out much because of health anxiety)?
Sorry for such a messy post. If anyone can offer any words of help, I would be so grateful.
Thanks. :)
I'd just like somewhere to ramble a bit if that's okay, and for anyone reading to help with some reassuring words.
I've suffered from panic/anxiety for coming up to ten years. After overcoming the 'traditional' panic attack symptoms, I've spent the last few years battling health anxiety that has stopped me going out and socialising a lot.
All of this has resulted in what I *think* is mild depression, and a pre-occupation with death. Not suicidal thoughts or anything, but a 'what's the point?' question in my head a lot... if we're, y'know, all going to die. I'm not even that scared about it... just preoccupied. So annoying. I can't relax like I used to... even watching TV. The days seem long and drawn out because I know it'll be on my mind, and I'm kinda glad when I can get to bed.
I never, ever used to feel like this... and knowing that other people are getting on fine and not feeling like this (I'm only 25), makes me worse I think.
I have never told anyone about the death anxiety, but am considering booking CBT sessions next week. Will they help? I am already taking Citalopram for anxiety.
Is this all just a symptom of depression, or even loneliness (I work at home, and don't go out much because of health anxiety)?
Sorry for such a messy post. If anyone can offer any words of help, I would be so grateful.
Thanks. :)