Deanyboy
31-01-10, 14:35
Hi all! I have just joined this site and am so hapy to find a place where so many people are having similar problems. I have finally found people who would understand!!!!!!!!!
I will tell you a bit about myself:
My family has a very strong history of Epilepsy on the female side e.g my sister, aunty and grandma. Grandma developed it from around 30 years old, my aunty from birth and my sister from around 13/14.
When I turned 13 I had my first ever panic attack. The only thing that I could suddenly make sense of this feeling of sheer terror was to think that it was epilepsy, so I was going to be like my sister etc etc.
from then on I have suffered from panic attacks and very high anxiety over it, even to the point where I continuously feel "dizzy". I am now 23. I have had counselling and NLP over the years which had heped me for a while, then I would go back to the same panicky way.
on 6th october 2009 I had a very strange visual disturbance. it started as a tiny wiggling blind spot just off the center of both visual fields. it then grew to a water effect around the edges of both eyes, then to a sparkling effect around the edges, similar to a blue sparkler on bonfire night, but it followed the pattern of blood vessels. Then it just stopped suddenly, with no headache after or later. This lasted for around 25 mins and as you can imagine guys, it scared the hell outta me!! I thought this is it, epilepsy from now on.
I have a wondeful 2 year old little boy with my partner and we have another little one on the way, due in june. I wish i could enjoy our time as a family more but im held back!
Thanks for taking the time to read this post guys and I look forward to meeting you all on here!
I will tell you a bit about myself:
My family has a very strong history of Epilepsy on the female side e.g my sister, aunty and grandma. Grandma developed it from around 30 years old, my aunty from birth and my sister from around 13/14.
When I turned 13 I had my first ever panic attack. The only thing that I could suddenly make sense of this feeling of sheer terror was to think that it was epilepsy, so I was going to be like my sister etc etc.
from then on I have suffered from panic attacks and very high anxiety over it, even to the point where I continuously feel "dizzy". I am now 23. I have had counselling and NLP over the years which had heped me for a while, then I would go back to the same panicky way.
on 6th october 2009 I had a very strange visual disturbance. it started as a tiny wiggling blind spot just off the center of both visual fields. it then grew to a water effect around the edges of both eyes, then to a sparkling effect around the edges, similar to a blue sparkler on bonfire night, but it followed the pattern of blood vessels. Then it just stopped suddenly, with no headache after or later. This lasted for around 25 mins and as you can imagine guys, it scared the hell outta me!! I thought this is it, epilepsy from now on.
I have a wondeful 2 year old little boy with my partner and we have another little one on the way, due in june. I wish i could enjoy our time as a family more but im held back!
Thanks for taking the time to read this post guys and I look forward to meeting you all on here!