mummy4
31-01-10, 21:45
been a bit up and down lately with my anxiety. more so down the past few days and have even told my hubby few times i cant stand living like this much more (our arguments) and i cry a lot and this of course makes my panic sky high.
anyway this evening we had massive row and i know it was wrong of my and now i feel very sorry but i chucked my mobile phone at him and it hit him on the back leaving a red mark :weep: he took a photo of it and pressed 999 on his mobile and said he was going to get me done for abuse :weep::ohmy: i was crying my eyes out saying sorry sorry sorry and i was jumping up and down in hysterics like a little child where i was soooo frightened at the thought of him ringing the police. the thing i fear most is being away from my 4 beautiful children. anyway then i started to have a full on panic attack and i was really struggling to breathe and my legs were really weak i could barely stand. then he said well dont have a panic attack here as we have no paper bags go and have one in the chippy where thet will have a bag :ohmy: (like i can control it)
he did not ring the police but kept getting hs phone out his pocket as if to send me into a panic again.
now im feeling very on edge unable to relax and i am in a right mess.
please anyone words or advice would be so great right now.
i must just add once again i know it was my fault and i should never of chucked my phone at him :( i have said sorry many many times this evening.
anyway this evening we had massive row and i know it was wrong of my and now i feel very sorry but i chucked my mobile phone at him and it hit him on the back leaving a red mark :weep: he took a photo of it and pressed 999 on his mobile and said he was going to get me done for abuse :weep::ohmy: i was crying my eyes out saying sorry sorry sorry and i was jumping up and down in hysterics like a little child where i was soooo frightened at the thought of him ringing the police. the thing i fear most is being away from my 4 beautiful children. anyway then i started to have a full on panic attack and i was really struggling to breathe and my legs were really weak i could barely stand. then he said well dont have a panic attack here as we have no paper bags go and have one in the chippy where thet will have a bag :ohmy: (like i can control it)
he did not ring the police but kept getting hs phone out his pocket as if to send me into a panic again.
now im feeling very on edge unable to relax and i am in a right mess.
please anyone words or advice would be so great right now.
i must just add once again i know it was my fault and i should never of chucked my phone at him :( i have said sorry many many times this evening.