frightenedbutterfly
04-02-10, 09:52
Hello!
My name is Sami and I'm 22. I am a student with the OU and also attend my local college for maths - when I can get out the door! - I found this site via the wonders of Google and I'm so happy!! Here's my background with this **** of an illness.
I guess I've had anxiety my whole life (abusive home life, a few traumatic events outside of that too) but it all fell apart when I was 18 just as I got an amazing new job. My first panic attack was pretty textbook, but over the years they have gotten much more painful and disturbing. My current diagnosis is depression, generalised anxiety disorder and panic disorder with agoraphobia. I also have C-PTSD and anorexia.
The support I have received hasn't been great but I have recently found a new GP and I feel somewhat hopeful now. I have had CAT and CBT and also attended day centre, but the CMHT decided to discharge me just as I disclosed traumatic memories to them which left it all on the surface and here I am now a year later fighting it every second of every day.
Medications have proved to be a nightmare. I have tried so many now. SSRI's don't seem to agree with me: escitalopram, citalopram, paroxetine, sertraline.. I've also tried the dreaded mirtazapine! It was a brilliant drug in terms of easing the anxiety and depression but I gained 40lbs. I've had lofepramine aswell but it didn't really do much except make me sweat. Gross.
So now? I'm in a pretty bad patch. I'm praying my GP will find some support for me because I really feel like I'm losing it.
Wow, I've rambled on for ages - sorry!!!! :whistles:
My name is Sami and I'm 22. I am a student with the OU and also attend my local college for maths - when I can get out the door! - I found this site via the wonders of Google and I'm so happy!! Here's my background with this **** of an illness.
I guess I've had anxiety my whole life (abusive home life, a few traumatic events outside of that too) but it all fell apart when I was 18 just as I got an amazing new job. My first panic attack was pretty textbook, but over the years they have gotten much more painful and disturbing. My current diagnosis is depression, generalised anxiety disorder and panic disorder with agoraphobia. I also have C-PTSD and anorexia.
The support I have received hasn't been great but I have recently found a new GP and I feel somewhat hopeful now. I have had CAT and CBT and also attended day centre, but the CMHT decided to discharge me just as I disclosed traumatic memories to them which left it all on the surface and here I am now a year later fighting it every second of every day.
Medications have proved to be a nightmare. I have tried so many now. SSRI's don't seem to agree with me: escitalopram, citalopram, paroxetine, sertraline.. I've also tried the dreaded mirtazapine! It was a brilliant drug in terms of easing the anxiety and depression but I gained 40lbs. I've had lofepramine aswell but it didn't really do much except make me sweat. Gross.
So now? I'm in a pretty bad patch. I'm praying my GP will find some support for me because I really feel like I'm losing it.
Wow, I've rambled on for ages - sorry!!!! :whistles: