harasgenster
08-02-10, 11:27
Hi
I'm just wondering if anyone has any advice for me.
I'm a chronic insomniac and sleep so little that I feel physically ill ALL of the time. I took two months off before Christmas on the long-term sick but it took ages for my benefits to come through and I was so stressed about money (my estate agents phoned me everyday and told me they were refusing to wait for my housing benefit and I had to pay them NOW even though I literally had no money). By the time I went back to work I had had no time to rest. Everything became so difficult and I just felt like crying all the time. I cut my sick leave short to go back to work so that I could make some money.
My sleep had started to right itself when I was off but within a month of being back at work I lost it again. I'm now sitting at home, about to go in for the afternoon after calling in sick for the morning but promising I'd come in at some point. I've barely slept all week and my boss had to take me to hospital on Thursday because I just started falling apart (stopped being able to speak properly and just couldn't function at all). I want some time off to allow my body to rest properly but I'm terrified that if I do that I won't be able to get another job. (I'm a contractor so I couldn't go back to my current workplace). I also just feel like I've failed. Everybody else can do this so why can't I?!
My MAm has lent me money so that I could live for a month without a wage and I could also get benefits to keep me afloat. But I just don't know whether to take the plunge. I feel guilty about the idea of not working.
What would everybody else do?
I'm just wondering if anyone has any advice for me.
I'm a chronic insomniac and sleep so little that I feel physically ill ALL of the time. I took two months off before Christmas on the long-term sick but it took ages for my benefits to come through and I was so stressed about money (my estate agents phoned me everyday and told me they were refusing to wait for my housing benefit and I had to pay them NOW even though I literally had no money). By the time I went back to work I had had no time to rest. Everything became so difficult and I just felt like crying all the time. I cut my sick leave short to go back to work so that I could make some money.
My sleep had started to right itself when I was off but within a month of being back at work I lost it again. I'm now sitting at home, about to go in for the afternoon after calling in sick for the morning but promising I'd come in at some point. I've barely slept all week and my boss had to take me to hospital on Thursday because I just started falling apart (stopped being able to speak properly and just couldn't function at all). I want some time off to allow my body to rest properly but I'm terrified that if I do that I won't be able to get another job. (I'm a contractor so I couldn't go back to my current workplace). I also just feel like I've failed. Everybody else can do this so why can't I?!
My MAm has lent me money so that I could live for a month without a wage and I could also get benefits to keep me afloat. But I just don't know whether to take the plunge. I feel guilty about the idea of not working.
What would everybody else do?