backflip95
10-02-10, 10:37
I finally plucked up the courage to post this on here. so here it goes ... Latley my mum has been dragging me into school. I have been falling behind in lessons and corsework. Im reallu past caring anymore as i feel as tho there is no point. Im not stupid and i understand what needs to be done, it just picking myself up and doing it thats the hard part. There was a big episode about self-harm at school the other day, and When im at school i get these 'feeling' in my head, i think im going compleatly insane! its atually a really scary feeling i get, but i just can't explane it. There was a big episode about self-harm at school the other day, and it make me think that is i cut then the fear would almost leak out. I havn't self-harmed .. yet. My Grandma's very ill at the moment, she reciently moved into a nursing home from the hospital, we found out she had advanced lung cancer, alot with lots of other things, and there is nothing that they could do but make her comftable. Big help, Not! Its really stressfull at home, my mum is tense because of my Grandma and my Dad keep shouting at me and making me feel bad :unsure: Schools no better, because, as i said, i get this 'feeling' but i also feel like im playing the Agony Aunt to my 2 best friends. One is a self harmer with lots of stress and the other is ill alot and has anixaty. I feel like if i fix there toubles then mine might just go away! I Have been having my sleeping tabs (melatonin) nearly everynight, and most of the time i sleep through but i still feel exhausted the next day. I also never feel hungry and i am starting to loose weight. I also have lo-confidence and self-esstem, i recently entered a modeling ocmpetiton for new look, and they didnt pick me... i undertand there was alot of entries, but i was kinda excited.
I was looking through the fourm and found this :
Major desorder means a prolonged feeling of sadness. Sufferer doesn't show interest in any activity or pass time. Loss of appetite, loss in weight, hopelessness, lack of concentration, low self esteem and isolation are the common symptoms of this disease. The negative feelings are very common in the patient suffering from major depression. Patient is always occupied with thoughts of suicide. A person with this type of depression needs good care and attention as they can harm himself anytime. This type of disorder is not short term, it lasts for years.
I have been refused anti-depressents but it wasnt as bad as this time. This 'feeling' is really starting to make me feel insaid, i just stay in my room all day and i love to sleep because it makes it all go away ...
Can come PLEASE post somthing ... anything ... i really need some help. I feel like all hope is gone and if one more thing goes wrong .. i dont know what i will do.
I was looking through the fourm and found this :
Major desorder means a prolonged feeling of sadness. Sufferer doesn't show interest in any activity or pass time. Loss of appetite, loss in weight, hopelessness, lack of concentration, low self esteem and isolation are the common symptoms of this disease. The negative feelings are very common in the patient suffering from major depression. Patient is always occupied with thoughts of suicide. A person with this type of depression needs good care and attention as they can harm himself anytime. This type of disorder is not short term, it lasts for years.
I have been refused anti-depressents but it wasnt as bad as this time. This 'feeling' is really starting to make me feel insaid, i just stay in my room all day and i love to sleep because it makes it all go away ...
Can come PLEASE post somthing ... anything ... i really need some help. I feel like all hope is gone and if one more thing goes wrong .. i dont know what i will do.