Juliamidlands
02-01-06, 21:33
Hey all, Happy New Year...
Need to get all this stuff out, so bear with me, feeling pretty low today, as I thought I was making progress [V]
As you probably all know, my problem lies with having panic attacks when driving at night. I had all of Christmas off work as holiday, which was great as I didnt have to worry about doing the route home from work for over a week. The day before I finished for Christmas, I went to the doctors, who prescribed Propanolol 40mgs. She advised me to give it a try one day over Christmas, while I was at home, so I could see how it made me feel, and how long before it had an effect, etc, so that by the time I was due to go back to work in the New Year (like, tomorrow), I would feel confident with taking it.
Unfortunately, I am so pathetic, that I've not got the guts to take it.
I mainly have a problem with driving myself, though sometimes I can also feel strange while I am in a passenger in a car at night.
Between xmas and new year, Dave and I went to stay with his relatives in a rural part of Wales. I was sure that I would freak out on the journey there (4 hours), but I was absolutely fine. Also, while we were there, we did a shorter journey to see some more of his relatives, who were deep in the countryside, it was 8pm and raining and he was driving. but even then I was absolutely fine. Great I thought ,maybe I am making progress!!
As it happens, I'm not making progress at all. We went out earlier tonight, and I was driving, and I thought hmm ok I'm dreading going back to work tomorrow so I think I will drive there and back (12 miles each way), to see how I go. It was BAD. I mean, pretty bad. Felt like all the 'progress' I made in Wales was all for nothing and now I am back to square one again :-(
The propanolol, however, remains UNOPENED in the box, as I am so worried about the side effects of taking it. I even called NHS direct earlier today for reassurance, the woman I spoke to was very helpful and said all the right things, but even so I am still worried. But I dont know what to do, I'm scared of taking the tablets but at the same time, I am dreading having to drive home from work tomorrow.
Thanks for reading, just really need some kind words/reassurance, or alternatively, someone to kick my butt into gear!
Julia x
'To the world, you may be one person, but to one person, you may be the world'.
Need to get all this stuff out, so bear with me, feeling pretty low today, as I thought I was making progress [V]
As you probably all know, my problem lies with having panic attacks when driving at night. I had all of Christmas off work as holiday, which was great as I didnt have to worry about doing the route home from work for over a week. The day before I finished for Christmas, I went to the doctors, who prescribed Propanolol 40mgs. She advised me to give it a try one day over Christmas, while I was at home, so I could see how it made me feel, and how long before it had an effect, etc, so that by the time I was due to go back to work in the New Year (like, tomorrow), I would feel confident with taking it.
Unfortunately, I am so pathetic, that I've not got the guts to take it.
I mainly have a problem with driving myself, though sometimes I can also feel strange while I am in a passenger in a car at night.
Between xmas and new year, Dave and I went to stay with his relatives in a rural part of Wales. I was sure that I would freak out on the journey there (4 hours), but I was absolutely fine. Also, while we were there, we did a shorter journey to see some more of his relatives, who were deep in the countryside, it was 8pm and raining and he was driving. but even then I was absolutely fine. Great I thought ,maybe I am making progress!!
As it happens, I'm not making progress at all. We went out earlier tonight, and I was driving, and I thought hmm ok I'm dreading going back to work tomorrow so I think I will drive there and back (12 miles each way), to see how I go. It was BAD. I mean, pretty bad. Felt like all the 'progress' I made in Wales was all for nothing and now I am back to square one again :-(
The propanolol, however, remains UNOPENED in the box, as I am so worried about the side effects of taking it. I even called NHS direct earlier today for reassurance, the woman I spoke to was very helpful and said all the right things, but even so I am still worried. But I dont know what to do, I'm scared of taking the tablets but at the same time, I am dreading having to drive home from work tomorrow.
Thanks for reading, just really need some kind words/reassurance, or alternatively, someone to kick my butt into gear!
Julia x
'To the world, you may be one person, but to one person, you may be the world'.