mlondon
17-02-10, 00:38
Well the past few months and by that I mean 3 months have been crazy for me. I spent 5 weeks in Vietnam travelling and working alone, finished my masters degree, went fulltime at work and moved from the comfort of living with my grandma to a house of 5 people, only one of which was a friend beforehand and spent the 1st week worrying if they liked me. The outcome was I felt like I could achieve anything and felt pretty optimistic about the future. This is coming from a person who couldn't be left alone or walk to the postbox at one stage.
I am having a difficult week this week though. My flatmates all went out to a festival at the weekend which ended up in a big party until the early hours of the morning. I went with them and got into the swing of things, I had a great time and got carried away and forgot that I can't drink as much or stay up as late as them as it makes me anxious. Since saturday i have felt horrible. Constantly anxious, afraid to be in the house alone, spotting all the possible dangers around me and having occasional depressive thoughts. I am not able to focus and am walking around in a daze. Whats more is that I have an important meeting with my boss this afternoon and then on friday I am having a friend from overseas coming to visit me, i don't know him very well, what if I feel anxious around him? The worst is that I feel I have inflicted this on myself due to the weekend and just want to feel back to normal again instead of so exhausted no matter how many hours sleep i have th night before.
Any words of encouragement that this will go away and it is a momentary lapse would be appreciated.
I am having a difficult week this week though. My flatmates all went out to a festival at the weekend which ended up in a big party until the early hours of the morning. I went with them and got into the swing of things, I had a great time and got carried away and forgot that I can't drink as much or stay up as late as them as it makes me anxious. Since saturday i have felt horrible. Constantly anxious, afraid to be in the house alone, spotting all the possible dangers around me and having occasional depressive thoughts. I am not able to focus and am walking around in a daze. Whats more is that I have an important meeting with my boss this afternoon and then on friday I am having a friend from overseas coming to visit me, i don't know him very well, what if I feel anxious around him? The worst is that I feel I have inflicted this on myself due to the weekend and just want to feel back to normal again instead of so exhausted no matter how many hours sleep i have th night before.
Any words of encouragement that this will go away and it is a momentary lapse would be appreciated.