would like an opinion......very concerned

[LisaLisa]

Hi everyone

Ages ago I read something that has been playing on my mind and i wondered if someone wouldnt mind giving me their opinion about it.
Im sorry its really long but would really appreciate a second opinion before i go absoutely mental with worry.

Stupidly i looked up the yearly report for the Scottish Blood borne viruses specialist tesing unit. Covering Hiv and hepatitis . This place do the specialist testing for all different areas of scotland and there were tables and facts on the testing activity from all the NHS areas of scotland.

I was reading through it all and there was nothing that scared me too much, just figures until i got to a kind of flow chart about how people should be tested for hiv. ( Which I presume was designed to be used by normal testing clinics/ GUM clinics)


It started off saying test patients using a fourth generation HIV test ( which is what I have had x 5) and then if positive the arrow went to stuff about confirmation testing. But when you follow the negative arrow, instead of saying Patient is negative like I hoped, it said ....

If patient is at risk of blood borne virus send a follow up specimen!!!


aaaaaaaa Does this mean that they want the sample to be sent to them there at the specialist testing unit becuae the clinic tests arent always good enough? or does it mean that they want the clinic to send a follow up sample to their own labs at a later date incase its too soon after infection because the person is living a lifestyle where they are always currently at risk?

The reason it bothers me is that i had a bellybutton perircing in someones house - a man who worked from home- about 8 years ago and I didnt notice whether he was using sterile equipment becuae i was too scared to look ...and i was slightly drunk.....

and now im thinking should i have had specialist testing done?

Please help

Lisa
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[barbn]

Stop right there!!! I know this is SUPER hard, but you have to tare yourself away from looking things up!! Yes, it more than likely wasn't the smartest thing to do, having your piercing done at someone's house - but the chances of you contracting anything from this is slim to none. You would have a better chance of geting an infection than HIV. NO, you do not need to send in a specimen. There is no way all of your test were a false negative. If there was any chance you had the virus, one of the tests would have come up positive.

I know this is hard - take a deep breath and tell your self over and over "I do not have HIV".....and if we all need to we will reassue you every day! I think those of us who "GOOGLE" need a buddy - someone to contact 24 hours a day 7 days a week and say "Help me, stop me, I am thinking of looking something up!!!" :)

[LisaLisa]

Stop right there!!! I know this is SUPER hard, but you have to tare yourself away from looking things up!! Yes, it more than likely wasn't the smartest thing to do, having your piercing done at someone's house - but the chances of you contracting anything from this is slim to none. You would have a better chance of geting an infection than HIV. NO, you do not need to send in a specimen. There is no way all of your test were a false negative. If there was any chance you had the virus, one of the tests would have come up positive.

I know this is hard - take a deep breath and tell your self over and over "I do not have HIV".....and if we all need to we will reassue you every day! I think those of us who "GOOGLE" need a buddy - someone to contact 24 hours a day 7 days a week and say "Help me, stop me, I am thinking of looking something up!!!" :)


Thanks so much Barbn, i really needed to hear that . I have really gone off on a google attack again today. Its like im out of control with it today. I have searched on so many stupid things today. I have put in all my symptoms and rearranged them over and over .

I dont understand why i keep falling into this trap of giving into my feelings of fear. i have been here so many times now and when i get through it each time I swear to myself that I wont do it again , but I do.

Its like I think, okay so 5 tests that are very accurate cannot all miss something that i could only have caught from a regular guy, or a peircing needle in my home town that isnt in anyway connected with the cameroon or anyplace where really rare or unusual subtypes exist. Thats fine....and then i think .......but what if there is something about these tests that I dont know? That means they dont always work? Or if there issomething about me that makes the tests not work for me?

I just cant work out what goes on in my head when i go into that what if mode?!?!!? Its like the reality and the reasurance of the negative tests loose their effect?

Thanks so much for answering luv

Lisa
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[Starscream]

I have noticed from your posts on here you are fixated on this.

I think the sooner you get help the better. I don't mean that in a bad way.

I am the same. I can't stop with my mouth. It's killing me. And I think everything in my mouth is a serious illness.

H.A is a horrible thing.

[MOMINPANIC]

If it's any consolation, I had my ears pierced in college in a similar way. It was done after a few of us had been drinking and I don't recall anything being sterile. That was almost 18 years ago! I think the fact that you have had 5 negative tests is a very good sign and hope you can find reassurance from that.

[LisaLisa]

I have noticed from your posts on here you are fixated on this.

I think the sooner you get help the better. I don't mean that in a bad way.

I am the same. I can't stop with my mouth. It's killing me. And I think everything in my mouth is a serious illness.

H.A is a horrible thing.

I know. The problem is that i have had a course in CBT and i come and go with it it becuae of the symptoms that i have.......which could also be the symptoms of bad stress too thankfully.

Im not sure what to do now though. I dont want to carry on like this. Itsno quality of life at all but where do I go now?

Lisa
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[Starscream]

I know. The problem is that i have had a course in CBT and i come and go with it it becuae of the symptoms that i have.......which could also be the symptoms of bad stress too thankfully.

Im not sure what to do now though. I dont want to carry on like this. Itsno quality of life at all but where do I go now?

Lisa
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I just trawled your threads since you joined and every single one is the same.

I'm the exact same, except it's all to do with spots and ulcers in my mouth. I have no other symptoms except serious dermatitus in my legs from 2005 or something.

You need to see a professional. As do I.

I am waiting on an appointment with one coming through and then seriously binning my anxiety altogether.

No more googling or coming on here panicking and annoying everyone.

I'm taking the steps to get it out my life and hopefully you'll be able to do the same soon.

Like you say, it's no quality of life and I'm having people questioning my sanity on a daily basis and when that happens something must be done.

[LisaLisa]

I just trawled your threads since you joined and every single one is the same.

I'm the exact same, except it's all to do with spots and ulcers in my mouth. I have no other symptoms except serious dermatitus in my legs from 2005 or something.

You need to see a professional. As do I.

I am waiting on an appointment with one coming through and then seriously binning my anxiety altogether.

No more googling or coming on here panicking and annoying everyone.

I'm taking the steps to get it out my life and hopefully you'll be able to do the same soon.

Like you say, it's no quality of life and I'm having people questioning my sanity on a daily basis and when that happens something must be done.


well actually i wasnt aware i was coming on here to cause others panic and annoyance. THANKS FOR THAT!!

[Starscream]

well actually i wasnt aware i was coming on here to cause others panic and annoyance. THANKS FOR THAT!!

I meant myself !

I feel that's the way I am on here and everytime I post a thread or something about my problems, I feel really guilty for sounding like a broken down record.

Wasn't aimed in any way at yourself.

Sorry if it came across that way.

[LisaLisa]

I meant myself !

I feel that's the way I am on here and everytime I post a thread or something about my problems, I feel really guilty for sounding like a broken down record.

Wasn't aimed in any way at yourself.

Sorry if it came across that way.

LOL

I kinda thought maybe you were getting at my sinuses post from the other day. Hope you got over that one. I posted back to you but dont know if you saw it.

The whole point in comeing on here is that its a two way thing. Folk help people with stuff they can see ratinale about and then yuo help back where yu can. Dont feel guilty luv, everyone on here has HA , everyone does this, they cant help it, its part of anxiety!!

Lisa
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[mikhail1028]

Lisa,

you are more assured than i am. Never had any HIV tests done yet,, Im just mere convincing myself its just anxiety.
Seeing all your posts well we have the same concern im pretty much scared of the virus right now i cant take a single test im not ready yet to take any result. Well im just believing in myself and my mind is just playing a trick on me CROSS-FINGERED:) I think you already know how hard it is to get the virus i think u are well informed enough.