Kathymary
20-02-10, 13:48
Hi
I am not sure if my particular problem is depersonalisation or derealisation or whether i have something really peculiar to me, because no-one seems to understand what i am talking about, i have had this on an off for over 40 years now - i am 56 I suffer from anxiety and always have done but I get by as best i can and live normally just try to accept it - i too have read Claire Weekes and she is absolutely amazing and her books are like so many other people's my bibile, the feeling i get she mentions and calls an exagerrated awarenes of self, but is it the same as my feeling? Sometimes i read it and i think yes thats it then i read it again and think no, if i can try and explain, it comes on suddenly, i will be doing normal thing like say, washing up, walking along, typing at work, just speaking to someone then suddenly i am aware of "me" what i am touching, what i am saying, its like i go right inside myself, its reallly awful if i am speaking to someone i can hear what they are saying and listen but "know" i am doing it, does that makes sense? sometimes it will happen so suddeny it has stopped me in my tracks, say suddenly going upstairs i will become aware of what i am doing and it will make me more or less stop for a second or two and it absolutely terrifies me, i have had this sometimes for months on end, then it goes sometimes it comes for short time then goes away, but when i do get it i am always afraid it will come back and last for ages, its so awful, if its particularly bad and i wake up during night and have to get out of bed to get a drink i even have it then -
sorry this is so long and i am not sure this is the rght place to put this question as i am new to this today but i thought i would ask if this is depersonalisation or derealisation because although it is awful i just want to know what it is -
thanks to anyone who can help
Kathy
I am not sure if my particular problem is depersonalisation or derealisation or whether i have something really peculiar to me, because no-one seems to understand what i am talking about, i have had this on an off for over 40 years now - i am 56 I suffer from anxiety and always have done but I get by as best i can and live normally just try to accept it - i too have read Claire Weekes and she is absolutely amazing and her books are like so many other people's my bibile, the feeling i get she mentions and calls an exagerrated awarenes of self, but is it the same as my feeling? Sometimes i read it and i think yes thats it then i read it again and think no, if i can try and explain, it comes on suddenly, i will be doing normal thing like say, washing up, walking along, typing at work, just speaking to someone then suddenly i am aware of "me" what i am touching, what i am saying, its like i go right inside myself, its reallly awful if i am speaking to someone i can hear what they are saying and listen but "know" i am doing it, does that makes sense? sometimes it will happen so suddeny it has stopped me in my tracks, say suddenly going upstairs i will become aware of what i am doing and it will make me more or less stop for a second or two and it absolutely terrifies me, i have had this sometimes for months on end, then it goes sometimes it comes for short time then goes away, but when i do get it i am always afraid it will come back and last for ages, its so awful, if its particularly bad and i wake up during night and have to get out of bed to get a drink i even have it then -
sorry this is so long and i am not sure this is the rght place to put this question as i am new to this today but i thought i would ask if this is depersonalisation or derealisation because although it is awful i just want to know what it is -
thanks to anyone who can help
Kathy