sunnyspice
10-02-04, 14:52
well hello everyone
thought i would pop in and give you an update on how i am, well i am slowly recovering i am now taking regular tablets 2 help control my anxiety and panic attacks i do feel alittle more in control and am now manging 2 spend some periods of time on my own it still scares me something terrible 2 be alone but i know i have 2 get through it so i find things 2 distract my mind like reading a book doing a crossword or even trying 2 watch tv...nites seem 2 be my worst tiem at the moment when the kids are in bed asleep thats when i have trouble coping mind mind starts 2 have awful thoughts like wot if i have a heart atatck will the kids help me could they cope i know it's irrational and i shouldnt think likei do it jsut sometimes feelsi cant help it and no matter wot i do the thoughts sneak in....have had a few bad days thsi last week in fact they have been orrible had a terrible cold andmy chest hurt so bad i was convinced i was dying phoned the nhs direct line crying my eyes out ranting like a launatic the nurse wa sso good and calmed me down i eventually went 2 sleep feeing emotinal and pyhiscally exhuasted ....but 2 day i feel a bit betetr have spent 2 hours on my own and am doing ok upto now want 2 thank everyone here for all your surport and i will try and keep you informed on my progress ph please for give me for spellings and if things make no sense i seem 2 get things confused in my head i sort of know wot iw ant 2 say but it egts all mixed up when i am trying 2 type it and when i go back 2 put it right i have trouble remebering how it was surposed 2 look in the first place
wendy
thought i would pop in and give you an update on how i am, well i am slowly recovering i am now taking regular tablets 2 help control my anxiety and panic attacks i do feel alittle more in control and am now manging 2 spend some periods of time on my own it still scares me something terrible 2 be alone but i know i have 2 get through it so i find things 2 distract my mind like reading a book doing a crossword or even trying 2 watch tv...nites seem 2 be my worst tiem at the moment when the kids are in bed asleep thats when i have trouble coping mind mind starts 2 have awful thoughts like wot if i have a heart atatck will the kids help me could they cope i know it's irrational and i shouldnt think likei do it jsut sometimes feelsi cant help it and no matter wot i do the thoughts sneak in....have had a few bad days thsi last week in fact they have been orrible had a terrible cold andmy chest hurt so bad i was convinced i was dying phoned the nhs direct line crying my eyes out ranting like a launatic the nurse wa sso good and calmed me down i eventually went 2 sleep feeing emotinal and pyhiscally exhuasted ....but 2 day i feel a bit betetr have spent 2 hours on my own and am doing ok upto now want 2 thank everyone here for all your surport and i will try and keep you informed on my progress ph please for give me for spellings and if things make no sense i seem 2 get things confused in my head i sort of know wot iw ant 2 say but it egts all mixed up when i am trying 2 type it and when i go back 2 put it right i have trouble remebering how it was surposed 2 look in the first place
wendy