turtleonaleash
07-03-10, 00:29
Hi All,
Me again! I was doing better for a few weeks. I managed to leave my house/drive by myself. I felt a bit like my old self again... but now I've hit rock bottom again.
My heart is racing, I can't breathe... for the last three days I have been concentrating on every breath. Breathe in, breathe out. I am convinced I am gong to forget or just stop.
My feet are in a cold sweat. I feel dizzy. I know it's anxiety but it's so frustrating. It's all day, every day. Not just a panic attack.
I'm afraid to go to sleep because I'm afraid I'll stop breathing.
Also lately I've found myself to be acting out a lot. I threw a telephone at the wall, threw keys, threw a major temper tantrum in the middle of a parking lot (I'm 21 years old.) I am just so frustrated. I feel like I'm losing my mind. I haven't been able to eat properly in months, I am afraid to go downtown because half the time I end up in tears/shaking/can't breathe. I had to give up going to college because of this.
Could my frustration be making me act out or am I actually losing my mind? I understand that all the extra adrenalin could make me aggressive, but this is ridiculous. I feel like I have no control over my body. And the worst part is the more I act out the worse my anxiety becomes. I use to be a really patient person and now I have no patience for anyone/anything. Everyone says I've changed so much in the last few months.
Me again! I was doing better for a few weeks. I managed to leave my house/drive by myself. I felt a bit like my old self again... but now I've hit rock bottom again.
My heart is racing, I can't breathe... for the last three days I have been concentrating on every breath. Breathe in, breathe out. I am convinced I am gong to forget or just stop.
My feet are in a cold sweat. I feel dizzy. I know it's anxiety but it's so frustrating. It's all day, every day. Not just a panic attack.
I'm afraid to go to sleep because I'm afraid I'll stop breathing.
Also lately I've found myself to be acting out a lot. I threw a telephone at the wall, threw keys, threw a major temper tantrum in the middle of a parking lot (I'm 21 years old.) I am just so frustrated. I feel like I'm losing my mind. I haven't been able to eat properly in months, I am afraid to go downtown because half the time I end up in tears/shaking/can't breathe. I had to give up going to college because of this.
Could my frustration be making me act out or am I actually losing my mind? I understand that all the extra adrenalin could make me aggressive, but this is ridiculous. I feel like I have no control over my body. And the worst part is the more I act out the worse my anxiety becomes. I use to be a really patient person and now I have no patience for anyone/anything. Everyone says I've changed so much in the last few months.