sarahdd
07-03-10, 11:49
ive written this post, read it then delete it then have re-written it 6 times!!! just feel nervous about posting the crappy things that have happened in my life thats led me here, in blinding panic attacks everyday and when im not having them im always on the verge on having one!!
im 28yrs and have had more happen in my lifetime then people have had in 10 lifetimes (thats no exageration).
ive always been on the anxious side even as a child particularly around my health, if i hurt myself or was ill id want to go to the dr for them to tell me i was ok (dont know why?)
then when i was 16 i actually was diagnosed with a serious blood disorder (severe chronic neutropenia) since then ive been in and out of hospital but still managed to get married and had 2 children. When i was pregnant with our 3rd in 2006, i was having a c-section and ended up heamorraging really bad and had an emergency hysterectomy and on life support.
obviously it left me very ill, and my husband had PTSD and a breakdown so i had to cope with his illness and then 2 of our daughters were diagnosed with a rare condition called sticklers syndrome and also one of them was diagnosed as having aspergers, it was such a stressful time.
then in 2007 our 4yr daughter was sexually assulted by our neighbours son who was 12yrs old at the time ( we'd know him since he was 8!!) on the way back from the police station where they had to video an interview with our daughter it was raining heavily and as we drove down a very steep hill our car aqua-planed and we had a major car accident, i suffered broken ribs, cracked breast plate, damaged my diaphram and damage to my neck and shoulder......
the panic attacks i suffer from now are horrendous, i dont just feel dizzy or faint, i literally feel like my throat is closing and that im goint to chock on my own tongue, i havent been to the dr's yet even the last 6mths have just been terrible living with this constant feelin, i know medication would help but am frightened to take it as ive heard it can make them worse and at the moment that doesnt seem possible!!!!
just dont know what to do.... thanks for your time xx
im 28yrs and have had more happen in my lifetime then people have had in 10 lifetimes (thats no exageration).
ive always been on the anxious side even as a child particularly around my health, if i hurt myself or was ill id want to go to the dr for them to tell me i was ok (dont know why?)
then when i was 16 i actually was diagnosed with a serious blood disorder (severe chronic neutropenia) since then ive been in and out of hospital but still managed to get married and had 2 children. When i was pregnant with our 3rd in 2006, i was having a c-section and ended up heamorraging really bad and had an emergency hysterectomy and on life support.
obviously it left me very ill, and my husband had PTSD and a breakdown so i had to cope with his illness and then 2 of our daughters were diagnosed with a rare condition called sticklers syndrome and also one of them was diagnosed as having aspergers, it was such a stressful time.
then in 2007 our 4yr daughter was sexually assulted by our neighbours son who was 12yrs old at the time ( we'd know him since he was 8!!) on the way back from the police station where they had to video an interview with our daughter it was raining heavily and as we drove down a very steep hill our car aqua-planed and we had a major car accident, i suffered broken ribs, cracked breast plate, damaged my diaphram and damage to my neck and shoulder......
the panic attacks i suffer from now are horrendous, i dont just feel dizzy or faint, i literally feel like my throat is closing and that im goint to chock on my own tongue, i havent been to the dr's yet even the last 6mths have just been terrible living with this constant feelin, i know medication would help but am frightened to take it as ive heard it can make them worse and at the moment that doesnt seem possible!!!!
just dont know what to do.... thanks for your time xx