moomintroll
07-03-10, 19:12
some of you may know from my chats in the chat room that my boyfriend decided to jump off a railing he had climbed and fell 20 foot, he said it was a joke gone wrong but its being classed as an attempted suicide and he has mentioned harming himself before to me, so i think it was an attempted suicide aswell
i suffer from anxiety quite badly anyway, i was with him when it happened, so had to deal with the police, fire and ambulance when it all turned up to sort it all out, i had to give statements etc, then go to the hospital with him etc
he is alive and well, he never even broke anything, just bruises, the fact he was drunk saved him
i am not sure how to deal with it, i feel numb and i know it has not hit me fully yet what has happened, i cannot get the images out of my head of him lying there at the bottom of the hole or what he was saying to me before he did it or the fact i had to give statements about what happened etc, i am just worried that when it hits me its going to hit me hard
my doctor signed me off for a couple of days after it happened as she felt it was safer for me
i do not know what to do or how to act just now and that is making me feel anxious:shrug:
i suffer from anxiety quite badly anyway, i was with him when it happened, so had to deal with the police, fire and ambulance when it all turned up to sort it all out, i had to give statements etc, then go to the hospital with him etc
he is alive and well, he never even broke anything, just bruises, the fact he was drunk saved him
i am not sure how to deal with it, i feel numb and i know it has not hit me fully yet what has happened, i cannot get the images out of my head of him lying there at the bottom of the hole or what he was saying to me before he did it or the fact i had to give statements about what happened etc, i am just worried that when it hits me its going to hit me hard
my doctor signed me off for a couple of days after it happened as she felt it was safer for me
i do not know what to do or how to act just now and that is making me feel anxious:shrug: