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hi all i been in np for about 2mnts now and have meet some great friends which i am pleased with i felt like an out sider b4 i meet all the brill people on here...... want to say a big thank you to mazz,tracey and rach for putting up with me and helping me througth it well the hard parts when i felt like i was loseing my mind....
well its all been a long journey and am glade for my adopted family on here they know who they r..... feels like my family dnt really bother i am just a thing that lives with them mind u they aint done much for me but mess my head up......
ok well i went to docs bout my panic attacks and sent me to see my cbt who is bill then we thougth it was all cause by my job and my ex being a well cnt really say the word so i went to see a specialist in breakups and work life, thougth i would be ok after but it was all still going wrong so i got a book bout panis its called when panic attacks by aine tubridy.. as i was reading it i felt more at ease it went into detail bout the whole panics n anxiety and depression there was an exercise to do and i did it ,it was to do with ur thougths,behaviour and sensations so it was to do with what goes througth my mind when i start to panic and what i found was i answered all the exercise with things from the past which i never imagined would be there,,, well back to my cbt i went crying at here and now im seeing a counciler it was my first visit last week i feel good for finally talking bout it all as i have keept it all in but it stiring all my emotions up but hey i can cope with it if i keep looking towards the ligth at the end of the tunnel,,, atleast i can see it now i thougth it was all never ending i dnt have panica as much still feel on edge and have my crying days but im determined not to let them win..
will keep u informed on my progress will be good if i can get some possitive replys maybe we could help each other well i better go and tourment my adopted family
good luck all lots of love and big hugs for u all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxx
as i say lifes a journey sit back relax and enjoy the ride!! not a pleasent one at time thou....
Emmy well done i remember talking to you in the begining and to be honest you where all over the place , now i can see the change in you and what a big change that has been . Proud of ya girl keep beliveing in yourself and you will reach that light love mazz x
Well done Emmy :D
Piglet x
"Supposing a tree fell down, Pooh, when we were underneath it?" said Piglet.
"Supposing it didn't," said Pooh after careful thought.
You're doing well Emmy.
Karen
It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere.
Thinking of you Emmy....lots of hugs & love:D
Jem xxx
Hi mate,
You really have been doing well, going from strength to strength, it wont be long before you are 'there'.
I enjoy our chats on MSN, we sure do put the world to rights dont we [}:)].
Keep up the good work hun.
Take care, speak soon.
Love
Trac XX
'Live your life with arms wide open, today is where your book begins, the rest is still unwritten'
Hi Emmy
You are doing brilliantly Emmy you really are!
Keep it up chicken and I'll speak to you soon.
Rach xxxx
"True acceptance means 'facing and relaxing' - it is submission" (Claire Weekes)
Emmy
Good for you for persisting to find your triggers and finding help to deal with them and to move on forwards. Congratulations
Keep going
Meg
www.anxietymanagementltd.com
Your anxiety is the human representation of the pictures that you paint using your many vivid colours of revolving and reoccurring thoughts.
How big is your gallery ?
Well done Emmy, you'll get there. Sus, xx
nomorepanic
09-01-06, 19:42
Emmy
I am so pleased to hear that you have met some lovely people on here that help you - that iws what it is all about.
Well done on all your achievements.
Nicola
thankyou all for the good response you have given me... i woke up to day and felt real for achange not a bad dream in sigth.... hope it lasts am nervious bout seein a counciler on thursday thou first time i have ever spoke about my probs and i have to go in detail.........
thankyou all again
big hugs and lots of love xxxxxxxxxxxx
Good luck with the counsellor Emmy. If I don't speak to you tonight I'll catch up with you when I get out of hospital next week.
Take care
Rach xxxx
"True acceptance means 'facing and relaxing' - it is submission" (Claire Weekes)
hi all its me again just thougth i would keep u all in formed on how things are going i am makeing some break throughs went to counciler yesterday for second time and it was so tense but i did it with a lot of crying and trying to make sense of whats buzzing round my head... and realised that i am beating my self up too much bout whats happenin to me and looking for the answers too hard i find it hard to think possitive all the time and feel great about my self... i am determined to do this and when i have done this i would love to help anyone out... i have always been a strong person and with what has happened in the past i was told by not nice people but i thougth i could trust them that that i should keep it to my self cause no one would belive me,,, well iv never had close friends was always scared they would judge me but now going througth this i feel i am findin my self a bit more and meetin great people who i trust so i guess i just got to bear with it all... if anyone has any suggestions on ant thougths exercise i could try plz post me and can u help me with gettin a sleeping pattern back as i dnt have one and feel drained a lot of the time.... thankyou for takeing time to read this i hope i can help someone get to where i have i do feel proud of my self but at same time scared of the new path im going down but i got all u lovely people to do it with thanks again i cnt say how much i oppreciat all the help iv got
big hugs to all and lots of love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
tracey,mazz n rach ur like my angels and a star for putting up with me thanks xxxxx
Hi Em,
You really are coming along in leaps and bounds, and doing so well with the councellor, you will get there mate and it wont take long wth the progress you have been making.
Take care
Love
Tracey XXX
'Live your life with arms wide open, today is where your book begins, the rest is still unwritten'
well im here writeing again to boar u all i did an amazing thing to nite and i walked to my local shop on my own was first time in 3 months i have walked on my own the shop is ten minutes walk there and back theres was not a panic in sigth just anxious and nervious i did phone my friend as i was aproaching a dark street and saw two people walkin towards me but i was ok my friends fone went dead as a horrible thougth went in my mind im on my own well then i could see the shop and thougth no u come this far u can phone your friend when you get back out so in the shop i went and for once i didnt forget anythink lol which amazed me as ever since i had panis and stuff i alays forget thing as i went to pay for my stuff i ordered a top up and realised i forgot my swipe card so they did a voucher for mr and i top my fone up while still in the shop to my amazement i was still ok... as i was on my way out the shop a youg man with the hood and stuff on you all know the type that scare you so i crossed the road and started to walk fast while trying to phone my friend then thougth "no nothink is going to happen to me i am my own safe person and no harm will come to me" all the time i was walkin i was doin my breathing it was brill i got back on phone to my friend as i approached the dark street and he said you really on your own and i sais smileing "yes" what a buzz i got... as i got closer to my house i thougth yeah iv done it now..am still buzzing now lol...
so how it all came about me going to the shop i was talking to rach on msn and told her i have not walked on my own yet and she said do it you will feel better and me being the lazy cow i am was think of every excuse then she said i dare you to go and i said no then said i will chat to you in a bit,,, i told here where i was going and she didnt belive me till i got back..... well i am in amazement with my self things are looking up now and hopefully getting better..
will be boaring you all some more soon seeing my counciler thurs...
big hugs to you all and lots of love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Emmy what you did last night was brilliant!
You deserve to be extemely proud of yourself!
Onwards and Upwards!
Speak to you soon
Rach xxxx
"True acceptance means 'facing and relaxing' - it is submission" (Claire Weekes)
Absolutely awesome Emmy, be proud, hold your head up and keep saying - I did it, no one did it for me - I did it myself!!!!!
Well done again! remember the buzz!
love Sax xx[8D]
"Friends are the like the stars......you can't always see them but they are always there!"
Hi mate,
I am sure everyone will agree with me that reading a positive post is never boring, it makes people feel good to know how well you are doing.
Keep up the good work mate, you are making excellent progress, well done.
Take care
Trac Xx
'Live your life with arms wide open, today is where your book begins, the rest is still unwritten'
i feel like i have let my self down i have been in bed all day not been well at all n feel bad that i aint done my walk but am going to try to do it tonite but i am in pain n keep being sick...... but i will get there thanks for the positive replys it means a lot to me.... i mite have to face public transport on thursday omg i am so scared of will have to get bottles of calm drops lol......
big hugs and keep smilie for the sunshine will reach us xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hi Emmy
The only reason you are feeling the way you are at the moment is because it is the time of the month!! Don't let it get you down. If you weren't suffering with anxiety you would still have to deal with period problems. Don't let it draw you into extra worry. In a few days this will pass and you will be back on track. The road to recovery is a bumpy one Emmmy - good days and bad days - but the final rewards will be COMPLETE RECOVERY!
Take care of yourself and don't beat yourself up for having a bad day - we all have them ok - you are doing great!
Take care
Rach xxxx
"True acceptance means 'facing and relaxing' - it is submission" (Claire Weekes)
thanks rach.... well i did the walk my bro came with me cause he wanted the shop aswell at least i made it there lol,,,,, didnt panic just had a hot flush when i got in the shop.... am going to my friends house soon... these bloody palps wish they would go well i wish all of it would go now but feels like the more i accept it the more im feelin real kind of like im accepting my self again and not figthing it all,,,
hugs to all we all need one at times xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
well i have done it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i travelled on the bus was with my friend but i always felt nervious and to day i felt anxious when i was on my way there but then settled in to the traveling... saw my counciler and went shopping after with no panics and i didnt take any rescue remedy or anythin am so proud of my self now,,, iv been home 3 hrs now and it has only just sunk in that i did it i feel so happy... thank you all that have helped me and replyed to my posts hope to chat to you all soon.....
big hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
p.s i did it , i did it lol
Emmy
Wow , Fab, brilliant , Thats great !!!!!
Many congratulations.
Keep it up and keep doing these trips out !
Meg
www.anxietymanagementltd.com
Your anxiety is the human representation of the pictures that you paint using your many vivid colours of revolving and reoccurring thoughts.
How big is your gallery ?
Well done Emmy.
Karen
It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere.
Well done Emmy!
Keep it up chicken - you're doing great!
Rach xxxx
"True acceptance means 'facing and relaxing' - it is submission" (Claire Weekes)
Well done Emmy. Keep pushing through and you'll gain more and more confidence. Good on you. :D
Cheers,
Trev :D
well it that time of week again when i went to see my counciler have worked a lot out havent had a panic attack for 2 weeks now [Yeah!]:D hope i dnt jinks my self now,, for once i didnt cry to my councile because i was up set but tears of joy to think of how low i felt and how many people have helped me,, any way i better get to the good part i went to see my brother and my friends place of work and i signed up for a business course with out thinking of my anxiety and i start it on monday i am so nervious [:o)] but i want to do it and i will do it the thougth of spendind a whole day out working is a bit terrifying [:o)]...... i am feeling really good today even got my music on dancing with the hairbrush :D[Yeah!] lol...
Brilliant Emmy!
It just keeps getting better mate doesnt it!
Onwards & Upwards
Rach xxxx
"True acceptance means 'facing and relaxing' - it is submission" (Claire Weekes)
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