Brokyn
08-03-10, 09:11
I have not been very far in this forum, thought it would be a good start here. I was diagnosed with severe clinical depression for many years until they found out that I am a cutter. Now they have changed their diagnosis to Borderline Personality Disorder. I am not on any anxiety medication however I see a pain management doctor who has prescribed Lyrica and Savella which both have SSRI's so I was hoping they would help. I also see a 'counselor', who in the three hours that we have seen each other in the past 6 months, says I am fine now. I lied to her and told her that I was not cutting anymore. Now I came out with the truth because I had to go to the hospital for chest pains and they saw the recent scars and bandaids... I did not know they were going to watch me change into a hospital gown, I had a long sleeve sweater that I could have covered them up with... Now I use the knitted sleeves that go around your thumb up to your elbow... My live in boyfriend has never noticed my cutting. That is how close we are... Or I hide it very well. My feline companion of 5 years just died in January and it has really put a rise in my cutting. I can not stop crying when I think about him. We were both Katrina survivors and I have woken up daily with him on my head for 5 years and now I do not iknow what i ma gonna do..