Greenthundah6
17-03-10, 04:37
I sort of feel like the rest of my life is going to be hell because of this HA. I'm stuck in this never ending loop of thinking I have or will get a disease... rationalizing it... and then moving on to something completely different.
I was sleeping before and randomly woke up with skin cancer on my mind. I don't even know why because (knock on wood) I have no symptoms. Now I'm sitting here shaking and feeling like I'm going to throw up. I guess I'm worried because of the years of tanning out in the sun and that I can't turn back time. This is ridiculous though because I feel like I'm anticipating it. Just yesterday I was worried that I had contracted herpes - that had been going on for months. I just want to be happy and somewhat carefree. How do I shake this feeling of hopelessness? It's not fair. I feel as though I have no control over my mind anymore. The other day, I asked my parents if I could see someone for my HA - my mom just yelled at me and said we can't afford it. No one is taking me seriously at home, and I feel as though I'm suffering alone.
please help :weep:
I was sleeping before and randomly woke up with skin cancer on my mind. I don't even know why because (knock on wood) I have no symptoms. Now I'm sitting here shaking and feeling like I'm going to throw up. I guess I'm worried because of the years of tanning out in the sun and that I can't turn back time. This is ridiculous though because I feel like I'm anticipating it. Just yesterday I was worried that I had contracted herpes - that had been going on for months. I just want to be happy and somewhat carefree. How do I shake this feeling of hopelessness? It's not fair. I feel as though I have no control over my mind anymore. The other day, I asked my parents if I could see someone for my HA - my mom just yelled at me and said we can't afford it. No one is taking me seriously at home, and I feel as though I'm suffering alone.
please help :weep: