phil06
22-03-10, 00:22
I'm in a bit of a muddle. Since the start of the year the dating scene for me has been grim..got to like woman that could be my "ideal" one that ends up and g.f and then it failed before the date. So I feel deflated and no confidence. I use to date alot now I feel lagged and can't be bothered but I still want to.
Now I have the chance of 4 dates and duno how I can fit them all in and some I'm worried are too good for me, some maybe not good enough and I'm just muddled..feel I'm going crazy.
Got a job interview for a bar job but I want to work in retail but the Job centre is being pushy. They keep giving me a job to apply for a call centre and I don't want to work there. So that's adding pressure..grr or should I go back to college?
I might not even get all these dates but feel guilty talking to so many. Feel I've changed and I'm not the person I use to be. I duno why I learned to drive was I never when I was younger..I duno why I like pubs now when I never use to? When I had a g.f I relate to happier times but feel things have moved on. I feel I want a few dates as it's been a while but also feel I want a g.f long term so I can move out. But I'm not guaranteed these jobs or these dates anyway.
I feel so immature and I hate being 21 now. I duno what's going on in my life I miss the me that would just go for things and try new jobs but since my anxiety kicked in I'm more warey of new jobs. I'm anxious around people and suffer OCD. My dating life is muffled feel I'll never get what I want..I struggle to ease the pressure off myself..I will probably go for these dates but what next? How will I feel?
I try and see myself in the future and I can imagine me settling but can also see myself going crazy and never having a normal life with this anxiety. Been feeling ok but as soon as my insecurities and uncertainties on life creep in snap this anxiety appears with vengagnce and becomes even more fearful. My head says why can' I go with the flow like everybody else but I take life so serious.
I feel a pressure cooker, struggle to relax..what is me? where is me? everything in life makes me anxious for some reason or another. Part of me says it's too young to settle at 21 some part of me says people settle younger...I'm really worried because I do not have a scooby doo where I'm going? I'm more wary of new opportunities now..I don't know why I feel I've experienced alot and feel bailed out and datings not got the same buzz for me at the moment.
I just feel down about it can't figure my head out atall! I should be a bit more positive but I duno what's up? I'm not getting out the house much so all this change gives me time to dwell.. :blush::lac:Does anybody else feel they thought they knew what they wanted but don't but do? :shrug:I hate these situations as ones I posted on here in the past nothing came of and something better may come along..when you have done so much jobs and had so many dates over the years it leaves you feeling like this..well it does with me.
Now I have the chance of 4 dates and duno how I can fit them all in and some I'm worried are too good for me, some maybe not good enough and I'm just muddled..feel I'm going crazy.
Got a job interview for a bar job but I want to work in retail but the Job centre is being pushy. They keep giving me a job to apply for a call centre and I don't want to work there. So that's adding pressure..grr or should I go back to college?
I might not even get all these dates but feel guilty talking to so many. Feel I've changed and I'm not the person I use to be. I duno why I learned to drive was I never when I was younger..I duno why I like pubs now when I never use to? When I had a g.f I relate to happier times but feel things have moved on. I feel I want a few dates as it's been a while but also feel I want a g.f long term so I can move out. But I'm not guaranteed these jobs or these dates anyway.
I feel so immature and I hate being 21 now. I duno what's going on in my life I miss the me that would just go for things and try new jobs but since my anxiety kicked in I'm more warey of new jobs. I'm anxious around people and suffer OCD. My dating life is muffled feel I'll never get what I want..I struggle to ease the pressure off myself..I will probably go for these dates but what next? How will I feel?
I try and see myself in the future and I can imagine me settling but can also see myself going crazy and never having a normal life with this anxiety. Been feeling ok but as soon as my insecurities and uncertainties on life creep in snap this anxiety appears with vengagnce and becomes even more fearful. My head says why can' I go with the flow like everybody else but I take life so serious.
I feel a pressure cooker, struggle to relax..what is me? where is me? everything in life makes me anxious for some reason or another. Part of me says it's too young to settle at 21 some part of me says people settle younger...I'm really worried because I do not have a scooby doo where I'm going? I'm more wary of new opportunities now..I don't know why I feel I've experienced alot and feel bailed out and datings not got the same buzz for me at the moment.
I just feel down about it can't figure my head out atall! I should be a bit more positive but I duno what's up? I'm not getting out the house much so all this change gives me time to dwell.. :blush::lac:Does anybody else feel they thought they knew what they wanted but don't but do? :shrug:I hate these situations as ones I posted on here in the past nothing came of and something better may come along..when you have done so much jobs and had so many dates over the years it leaves you feeling like this..well it does with me.