phil06
23-03-10, 14:29
My symptoms:
*Pounding headache
*Very stressed
*Feel suffocated, air around me warm and feel I can't breathe in it, too much cold air makes me scared too.
*Just can't relax and watch a dvd or sumin..
*Whole body pain, chest, muscles.
*My love life is driving me bonkers I keep getting let down and cancelled
*on with dates I really can't take anymore of it..:doh:why how can I be soo unlucky..
*Ringing in ears.
*Feel I'm ready to go crazy.
*Lots of depersonalization.
My life is not going my way..ok it might never be perfect but I'm not even happy I feel down and low. This is making me panic again..I've got so angry with these woman who let me down the last few days 4 months almost of 2010 and it's all been the same I feel maybe it's me? Maybe I lose the head but then again it was never this HARD in the past? There so indecisive why do they lead me on? My confidence has been destroyed, I've gave up. This is the worst it's EVER been..I can't take it.
In the past a date at the cinema was a slightly easier task just casually arrange it and hope for the best. Now I've had about 10+ people let me down in the last few months and it's horrible..I don't want to take a break as I've been single three years so it's hurting to sit and watch a dvd and not try and get that simple date..the get out the house meet a new woman kind of thing.
I don't know what I've done to deserve it..I thought with these dates one might happen but none will. :weep: I've had two sleepless nights again..feel all funny and weird and upset.
Why can't it be easier? I start off optimistic but soon see it crumble when I realise I've been mugged again into getting my hopes up..I don't blame them I blame luck..I met people before and it just happened now that lucks LONG gone..life really sucks! :scared15: Who am I anymore and why is this happening to me? am I a horrible person? This may sound selfish to want company but after three years I'm hurting bad with it not the kind of guy who likes being single..if it's been hard lately it's now super super bad..going on hopeless now. This post is how three years frustration has left me feeling.
*Pounding headache
*Very stressed
*Feel suffocated, air around me warm and feel I can't breathe in it, too much cold air makes me scared too.
*Just can't relax and watch a dvd or sumin..
*Whole body pain, chest, muscles.
*My love life is driving me bonkers I keep getting let down and cancelled
*on with dates I really can't take anymore of it..:doh:why how can I be soo unlucky..
*Ringing in ears.
*Feel I'm ready to go crazy.
*Lots of depersonalization.
My life is not going my way..ok it might never be perfect but I'm not even happy I feel down and low. This is making me panic again..I've got so angry with these woman who let me down the last few days 4 months almost of 2010 and it's all been the same I feel maybe it's me? Maybe I lose the head but then again it was never this HARD in the past? There so indecisive why do they lead me on? My confidence has been destroyed, I've gave up. This is the worst it's EVER been..I can't take it.
In the past a date at the cinema was a slightly easier task just casually arrange it and hope for the best. Now I've had about 10+ people let me down in the last few months and it's horrible..I don't want to take a break as I've been single three years so it's hurting to sit and watch a dvd and not try and get that simple date..the get out the house meet a new woman kind of thing.
I don't know what I've done to deserve it..I thought with these dates one might happen but none will. :weep: I've had two sleepless nights again..feel all funny and weird and upset.
Why can't it be easier? I start off optimistic but soon see it crumble when I realise I've been mugged again into getting my hopes up..I don't blame them I blame luck..I met people before and it just happened now that lucks LONG gone..life really sucks! :scared15: Who am I anymore and why is this happening to me? am I a horrible person? This may sound selfish to want company but after three years I'm hurting bad with it not the kind of guy who likes being single..if it's been hard lately it's now super super bad..going on hopeless now. This post is how three years frustration has left me feeling.