FRANKIEISBACK
13-01-06, 16:05
My problem is self analysis and excessive guilt and morbid introspection...or so the doctor says anyway.
Incidents from the past plague my mind and never seem to let go. I had a beautiful dog as a young man, well 16 when I got him, and loved him to bits yet did some cruel things to him, I continually go back to those events, not willingly I might add and the fear, self loathing and disgust feelings rise up. I thought it was OCD but my doctor reckons its morbid preoccupation which has now sort of established itself.
I also bullied others, being insecure myself, and even now when I see people I was in school with, I think you bullied him, he probably hates you, I remeber one boy I used to kick under the table and one day his mother brought him into school and I was cained for doing it, I still remember these events like being cruel to my dog it fells like i am being punished
Why the heck are our minds so bloody fertile grounds for fear and self loathing? She has prescribed Clomipramine and told me , quite surprisingly, not to read too much on my problems and mental health subject matter but to keep taking the tablets!!!!!
Incidents from the past plague my mind and never seem to let go. I had a beautiful dog as a young man, well 16 when I got him, and loved him to bits yet did some cruel things to him, I continually go back to those events, not willingly I might add and the fear, self loathing and disgust feelings rise up. I thought it was OCD but my doctor reckons its morbid preoccupation which has now sort of established itself.
I also bullied others, being insecure myself, and even now when I see people I was in school with, I think you bullied him, he probably hates you, I remeber one boy I used to kick under the table and one day his mother brought him into school and I was cained for doing it, I still remember these events like being cruel to my dog it fells like i am being punished
Why the heck are our minds so bloody fertile grounds for fear and self loathing? She has prescribed Clomipramine and told me , quite surprisingly, not to read too much on my problems and mental health subject matter but to keep taking the tablets!!!!!