Does anyone else on here live alone?

[xBettyBoopx]

Hi

Does anyone else who comes on here full of anxiety and depression live alone? If you do, do you feel abandoned and so alone that you think you will die of the blackness that seems to surround you every day? That's what it's like for me!

Over the years, especially this last year, I have lost all my friends and I have no family to speak of really (long story). I am completely alone and the fear is great but the depression makes me feel like I'm in a black hole, the loneliness is killing me, I am human and need to have contact with other humans to survive. I do go and see neighbours but I'm sure they get fed up with me! I just feel like being here like this is not worth it, anyone else feel like this or is it just me?

Els

[TTBP]

I used to live alone and know exactly how you feel. It's horrible.

I go through phases of wanting to isolate myself though

I don't know about you but I can still feel alone if I'm surrounded by others anyway xx

[Thumbelina]

Hi Els,

Its understandable that you feel they way you are with depression and loneleness. It is hard not to. Hope you can find a lot of friends here and they will make you feel not alone.

I find lots of support at times in virtual community more effective then in reality around me.

[Alicat]

Yes!! I live alone and I hate it! I sometimes just feel so overwhelmed by it all and end up spending hours wandering round shops and stuff to escape being on my own. I also spend hours and hours on-line. I can understand how you feel :bighug1:

[xBettyBoopx]

Thank you TTBP, Thumbalina and Ali for replying. I guess there aren't many that live alone or feel the way I do.

Ali - sorry you're so alone too. I spend many many hours on line too, but get fed up with that......lol!!!!!:shrug: I seem to be a bit better at night, I suppose cause the day is ending, omg what a way to be?! It's all so sad:weep::weep:

Els

[Thumbelina]

Dnt be sad
you are not alone, you just feel lonely

and its because you are anxious and low...

[Redrainbow]

Hi Els,
Yes it can't be nice being alone and feeling like that, but you know i live with my family and you can still feel alone, its the illness makes you feel like that. Your doing the best thing you can do now by talking about it, because now you know you are not alone. I hope you feel better soon els,
Best regards Redrainbow.

[betsy]

Hi Els
yes i too am alone I have family married and involved in their lives they push me to go out cope drag me from one specialist to another hoping to find the cure. I must admit i want it too the quick fix. one tryies to help but does not believe that i am not just over dramatic . How do you deal with living alone all time? I am really struggling.

[Mr Guntrip]

Hi Els

I have recently moved out of my parents home and now live on my own. For the first few weeks I was so busy sorting things out I never had time to be lonely. But now the realisation is sinking in and I'm starting to feel all alone. I'm lucky in that I have a full time job but evenings and weekends are hard. So yes I know exactly how you and the others feel.

Mr Guntrip

[Jannie2948]

Hello Els

I usually live alone, but since I have been ill with this blooming anxiety/panic, my eldest son has come back to live with me and I love it. He has let his house and will stay with me for the time being. I have lived alone since my youngest son left home about 6 years ago and I must say I am never lonely. I work full time and have some good friends. The only times I feel alone is in the evenings and I wish that I had someone to talk to but I do not mind being on my own, I quite like my own company :-). I suppose I am lucky that I have 2 sons, one is married but lives quite nearby.

I've been divorced for many years but most of my friends are married or with a partner, although I still go out socially with work colleagues and have a very close friend who lives close by who I also go out with evenings and weekends.

It is so nice to have this web site to turn to when you need someone to help you through a problem though, there is always someone on here who has been in the same position that you have.

Do you work? What part of England do you live in? I'm in Kent.

Jannie x x

[Alicat]

I'm the same Els. I much prefer evenings and feel better. Mornings really scare me sometimes.

Mr. Guntrip, I feel the same and I know part of my problem is that I work part-time. Only afternoons so I feel like I'm wasting half my life but can't motivate myself to do anything in the morning. I also work in education so have long holidays, which can be awful.

[frightenedbutterfly]

I live alone too, and the feeling of isolation and abandonment is something I wrestle with everyday. If you ever need someone to talk to please feel free to PM me. Take care :) x

[flapjack]

Wow ! Reading all of your posts was so reassuring, I too live alone and can't work due to panic and anxiety and can totally relate to your feelings of lonliness and isolation.

Especially feeling better in the evenings and spending too much time online only - I thought I was the only one.

Please anyone feeling low PM me anytime.

Flapjack

[valleybear]

I have lived alone since my husband died three years ago. I manage most of the time to keep myself busy and have my dog for company..(I talk out loud to him I'm afraid..marginally better than talking to myself lol). I do understand how it can be lonely, but the only time it is really bad for me is if my panic attacks are in full flow,
or lately when I had really bad obsessional/irrational thoughts and there was no-one to break the cycle(it is not the thing you want to talk to folks on the phone about.)
That is why this site is so valuable. There is always someone you can talk to in the darker times. Hope that you feel more positive soon XX

[graham58]

Hi all,

I live alone too. I cope but I'm sure it's one of the main reasons I spend so long on the Internet (which I'd probably use anyway, it's addictive in its own right).

Getting out one day a week and doing voluntary work for our local community centre helps me a lot though and may help others in the same boat (if you can and aren't completely crippled with agoraphobia etc.).

[chrislot]

I got a flatmate, and also volunteered in an op shop, to escape the aloneness. It helped me enormously and now, I choose to keep my flatmate and continue volunteering, but less often.

[chrislot]

I forgot to say that I am now cured. Had tmnt from a Pfeiffer Research Institute trained GP who diagnosed me with pyroluria, undermethylation and copper overload. I will be on this vitamin protocol for life, but it works so well.