mcray1981
29-03-10, 08:39
Hey guys,
I'm a 28yr old bloke and IT worker from NI. Usually a very happy go lucky person.
I worked as a civil servant for 5 yrs and then left for the private sector - at the same time my gran died and bang - I found I couldnt cope with things. In the new job I had no support at all and a managing director who's standard response was fix it or your sacked (to all staff). When I took time off to attend the funeral his response was "Its only your ****in granny".
I managed to struggle on for nearly a year and have now got myself another job which is a lot better.
I find most of the time I'm ok but when change threatens (like this week) I find the old panic feelings kick in that I can't deal with this and life is just awful. I know in my head life is quite good for me but when the feelings hit like waves (particularly in the morning) all the good tends to disappear.
Anyway - thats my story so far.
Today hasnt started off as bad as usual so I'm hopeful that the panic is easing for a while again.
I'm a 28yr old bloke and IT worker from NI. Usually a very happy go lucky person.
I worked as a civil servant for 5 yrs and then left for the private sector - at the same time my gran died and bang - I found I couldnt cope with things. In the new job I had no support at all and a managing director who's standard response was fix it or your sacked (to all staff). When I took time off to attend the funeral his response was "Its only your ****in granny".
I managed to struggle on for nearly a year and have now got myself another job which is a lot better.
I find most of the time I'm ok but when change threatens (like this week) I find the old panic feelings kick in that I can't deal with this and life is just awful. I know in my head life is quite good for me but when the feelings hit like waves (particularly in the morning) all the good tends to disappear.
Anyway - thats my story so far.
Today hasnt started off as bad as usual so I'm hopeful that the panic is easing for a while again.