superjonboy
01-04-10, 15:27
MY Health Anxiety has some favourite worries such as: Brain Tumor, Hemorraghe, MS but also Schizophrenia, Psychosis, Mania, Bipolar.
I just don't know how to stop it. I know i'm torturing myself.
Today, for instance, I woke up o.k'ish, took my medication (100mg sertraline) then loaded up the car to take a few bits to the new house. I'm moving out o my parents, where my wife and I have been stayin till we found somewhere.
So today it all started in the new house. I suddenly felt 'Weird'. Straight away I'm having thoughts like - "This could be the start of psychosis." "MAybe the medication is starting to cause serious side effects like mania"
I went back to my parents house and went back to bed for an hour as I was feeling really fatigued. I woke up with a horrible tingly, butterfly feeling in my chest. So now i'm onto - "Heart Attack?" "Something wrong with my breathing?" "Maybe it's the medication causing side fects and it will stop me breathing"
We took some more stuff through to the house and I had something to eat and the feelings in my chest subsided. I did get some palpitation type thing though where i got a pain in my chest and it elt like i couldn't breathe. Again the thoughts were the same.
I feel so ill. I feel at deaths door or at the edge of sanity. I'm expecting the worse all the time. I'v recently been put on Sertraline 100mg. I was on Citalopram which had worked in the past but had become inaffective. I tapered off Citalopram then had 3 days break then started 50m Sertraline for 2 week then 100mg. I think i'm on my 5th day of 100mg now so its almost 3 weeks. I'm definatly no better yet and probably worse. Iknow they take 5 - 8 weeks though. I'm just really worried they will cause me harm and thats why I'm feeling so rough now. Like they miht be slowly killing me or sending me into a psyhosis e.t.c
I just don't know what to do. How can I escape this. I'm supposed to be moving friday/saturday but all I keep thinking is that something terrible will happen like it will push me over the edge into serious mental illness or i'll just collapse.
John x
I just don't know how to stop it. I know i'm torturing myself.
Today, for instance, I woke up o.k'ish, took my medication (100mg sertraline) then loaded up the car to take a few bits to the new house. I'm moving out o my parents, where my wife and I have been stayin till we found somewhere.
So today it all started in the new house. I suddenly felt 'Weird'. Straight away I'm having thoughts like - "This could be the start of psychosis." "MAybe the medication is starting to cause serious side effects like mania"
I went back to my parents house and went back to bed for an hour as I was feeling really fatigued. I woke up with a horrible tingly, butterfly feeling in my chest. So now i'm onto - "Heart Attack?" "Something wrong with my breathing?" "Maybe it's the medication causing side fects and it will stop me breathing"
We took some more stuff through to the house and I had something to eat and the feelings in my chest subsided. I did get some palpitation type thing though where i got a pain in my chest and it elt like i couldn't breathe. Again the thoughts were the same.
I feel so ill. I feel at deaths door or at the edge of sanity. I'm expecting the worse all the time. I'v recently been put on Sertraline 100mg. I was on Citalopram which had worked in the past but had become inaffective. I tapered off Citalopram then had 3 days break then started 50m Sertraline for 2 week then 100mg. I think i'm on my 5th day of 100mg now so its almost 3 weeks. I'm definatly no better yet and probably worse. Iknow they take 5 - 8 weeks though. I'm just really worried they will cause me harm and thats why I'm feeling so rough now. Like they miht be slowly killing me or sending me into a psyhosis e.t.c
I just don't know what to do. How can I escape this. I'm supposed to be moving friday/saturday but all I keep thinking is that something terrible will happen like it will push me over the edge into serious mental illness or i'll just collapse.
John x