katalyst85
01-04-10, 20:31
WELL HELLO EVERYONE! :) i came across this website after googling 'Citalopram'! like a maniac looking for every bit of information on the drug, bad idea!! then I found this site which I can just tell I am going to be on all the time.
So your probably wondering wats up with a 25 year old mum to 2 babies?!!
I wont bore you with the details cause your probably already just scanning this anyway looking for the juicy bits but basically the story goes, I left my family home 4 years ago after years and years of physical and mental abuse which really put a dent in everything that I am. Plucking up the courage to leave was the hardest decision ever which has ultimately been the best one. So 4 years down the life with 2 children of my own I found it very hard to let go of the past and everything I ever do comes right back down to it:weep: you could say my confidence was bashed etc. I thought that having my babies would make everything go away but while its a better life I still get this niggling feeling in the back of my mind that having no contact with my mother for 4 years after everything she did to me still leaves me unhappy. She has never met my children and that bothers me that one day it will be too late. I have trouble switching my brain off:huh: it goes into overdrive at night and wont shut the hell up, I think way too much and in detail about things. Ive hurt people Im closest too by not trusting them and tarring them with the same brush. I swore I would never end up like her but I just do exactly the same as her:lac:I lash out and name call and thats not me! she turned me into that coz thats all ive ever known.My mood swings are unbearable to live with and I dont know how people put up with me! also having my two babies close together hasnt helped the situation, its sooo hard and while I wouldnt change them for the world it does get me down at times. Nearly 2 weeks ago things got so bad that my babies daddy moved out of our house n wouldnt come back till I got help and to be honest I knew he was right I had been living like this for years and it was never going to get better unless I did something. I can honestly say he has helped me endlessly n support even taking the day off to come to the doctors with me. My GP prescribed me 20mg of Citalopram to try and suggesting I see a CNP and when I left that room this almighty weight just lifted off my shoulders that I had been carrying for years. Finally the ball was rolling and people were willing to listen. This is day 11 that I have been on Cit and I am already noticing its effects and so are others:yesyes: when I go to think negative things etc my mind switches if you like. I think me and Cit are going to get on just fine! where were you years ago?!! you would have saved alot of heartache! Anybody want to talk to me I will be glad to speak its done me the world of good it could you too:yahoo:
So your probably wondering wats up with a 25 year old mum to 2 babies?!!
I wont bore you with the details cause your probably already just scanning this anyway looking for the juicy bits but basically the story goes, I left my family home 4 years ago after years and years of physical and mental abuse which really put a dent in everything that I am. Plucking up the courage to leave was the hardest decision ever which has ultimately been the best one. So 4 years down the life with 2 children of my own I found it very hard to let go of the past and everything I ever do comes right back down to it:weep: you could say my confidence was bashed etc. I thought that having my babies would make everything go away but while its a better life I still get this niggling feeling in the back of my mind that having no contact with my mother for 4 years after everything she did to me still leaves me unhappy. She has never met my children and that bothers me that one day it will be too late. I have trouble switching my brain off:huh: it goes into overdrive at night and wont shut the hell up, I think way too much and in detail about things. Ive hurt people Im closest too by not trusting them and tarring them with the same brush. I swore I would never end up like her but I just do exactly the same as her:lac:I lash out and name call and thats not me! she turned me into that coz thats all ive ever known.My mood swings are unbearable to live with and I dont know how people put up with me! also having my two babies close together hasnt helped the situation, its sooo hard and while I wouldnt change them for the world it does get me down at times. Nearly 2 weeks ago things got so bad that my babies daddy moved out of our house n wouldnt come back till I got help and to be honest I knew he was right I had been living like this for years and it was never going to get better unless I did something. I can honestly say he has helped me endlessly n support even taking the day off to come to the doctors with me. My GP prescribed me 20mg of Citalopram to try and suggesting I see a CNP and when I left that room this almighty weight just lifted off my shoulders that I had been carrying for years. Finally the ball was rolling and people were willing to listen. This is day 11 that I have been on Cit and I am already noticing its effects and so are others:yesyes: when I go to think negative things etc my mind switches if you like. I think me and Cit are going to get on just fine! where were you years ago?!! you would have saved alot of heartache! Anybody want to talk to me I will be glad to speak its done me the world of good it could you too:yahoo: