PokerFace
03-04-10, 09:49
Sorry if this is a long post i just don't know where else to turn right now.
Ok, so I've suffered from anxiety and panic attacks since I was about 15. It was always controlable for me and didn't affect my life too much as I'd go months and months with out one and they were pretty mild. I'd gone about 2 years without having one until recently and it's become unbearable.
I was fine until 3 weeks ago when out of no where I had 2 muscle spasms in my chest that felt like I was having a heart attack, there was pain all down my left arm, my chest, my jaw. I was so convinced I was about to die I called an ambulance and they did 2 ECGs on me and said they couldn't see anything wrong with my heart but insisted I go to the hosptial as I was still complaining of chest pain. I had another ECG at the hosptial and the doctor told me my heart was fine it was just beating a little too fast and I'd most likely had a muscle spasm. I got home from the hosptial and i just couldnt stop the pain in my chest the rushes you get from anxiety, my heart pounding and not being able to breathe. I havn't felt ok since theres just always this sense of impending doom like I'm about to die and it just takes one little twinge in my chest or arm and it sets me off into full blown anxiety attack. My heart races, my chest hurts, I get hot, I feel sick, I can't breathe, I can't think straight and it takes all of my strength just to calm myself down.
It's gotten so bad that i refuse to be left alone. I'm 20 years old and I can't be in the house alone or I just break into an anixety attack. I want to cry all the time I need constant reassurance from my mum and sister who have told me I'm not going to die and if I was, 3 ECGs would have picked something up if there was something really wrong with my heart it's just pure panic.
I can't see a way out at the moment I should be out with my friends having fun having a life you're only young once but I can't even face walking to the shop which is less than 10 minutes away. I can't see a way out every day is just getting through the next hour it's not how I want to live my life. I don't want to go on medication as I think it will just mask the problem and not solve it.
I'm so scared all the time I was just wondering if anyone else out there has experienced anything like this? I feel alone I need someone who knows what I'm going through to talk to maybe it will help me.
Sorry for the long post again. Thanks in advance for any help.
Ok, so I've suffered from anxiety and panic attacks since I was about 15. It was always controlable for me and didn't affect my life too much as I'd go months and months with out one and they were pretty mild. I'd gone about 2 years without having one until recently and it's become unbearable.
I was fine until 3 weeks ago when out of no where I had 2 muscle spasms in my chest that felt like I was having a heart attack, there was pain all down my left arm, my chest, my jaw. I was so convinced I was about to die I called an ambulance and they did 2 ECGs on me and said they couldn't see anything wrong with my heart but insisted I go to the hosptial as I was still complaining of chest pain. I had another ECG at the hosptial and the doctor told me my heart was fine it was just beating a little too fast and I'd most likely had a muscle spasm. I got home from the hosptial and i just couldnt stop the pain in my chest the rushes you get from anxiety, my heart pounding and not being able to breathe. I havn't felt ok since theres just always this sense of impending doom like I'm about to die and it just takes one little twinge in my chest or arm and it sets me off into full blown anxiety attack. My heart races, my chest hurts, I get hot, I feel sick, I can't breathe, I can't think straight and it takes all of my strength just to calm myself down.
It's gotten so bad that i refuse to be left alone. I'm 20 years old and I can't be in the house alone or I just break into an anixety attack. I want to cry all the time I need constant reassurance from my mum and sister who have told me I'm not going to die and if I was, 3 ECGs would have picked something up if there was something really wrong with my heart it's just pure panic.
I can't see a way out at the moment I should be out with my friends having fun having a life you're only young once but I can't even face walking to the shop which is less than 10 minutes away. I can't see a way out every day is just getting through the next hour it's not how I want to live my life. I don't want to go on medication as I think it will just mask the problem and not solve it.
I'm so scared all the time I was just wondering if anyone else out there has experienced anything like this? I feel alone I need someone who knows what I'm going through to talk to maybe it will help me.
Sorry for the long post again. Thanks in advance for any help.